You Are Mine

Chapter 3: shocking

Trigger warnings. Chapter contains suggestive material of sexual assault.

"That's quite enough from you, mr. baker." The doctor snaps and stomps closer to us.

"Yeah, doc? You think she can't handle what I got?" Colson asks and leans back on the couch, his whole demeanor appears relaxed as he has this mini stand off with the doctor.

"I'm sure I don't know what you mean." Dr Z replies and stares directly at me. He's furious.

"Katherine, I think we need to have a discussion in my office." He says.

Normally I would comply without hesitation, but instead I shrug. Is it bravery from having Colson next to me, or is it that first missed dose?

I can't tell if it was you or the drugs
But I don't think I could function without you

"Having a discussion with a female patient alone in your office when she hasn't done anything wrong seems 'highly inappropriate'." Colson says and makes air quotes while speaking. The doctors face drops in disbelief. I just don't know if it's because someone has challenged him or because I haven't jumped to follow him to that office of hell.

"Don't be ridiculous." He scoffs and looks at me. "My office right now."

I don't move. "I want a female nurse present."

Colson's laugh cuts through the tension. "Boom, doc. Boom."

Dr. Z peeks at Colson before staring me back down. "Very well, that is your right." He says through tight lips. "When I can arrange that we will have that discussion I mentioned. Hands to yourselves." He snaps and walks off shaking his head.

I cover my mouth, shocked at what I'd just done. Many feelings rush through me. Fear at his retaliation, worry for what will happen to me, liberation for speaking my mind. Mostly I just keep picturing his reaction, and out of nowhere a giggle erupts from my chest.

"Oh my god!" I say through my laughter. "Did you see his face?" I can't believe I'm laughing like this.

I look completely crazy because before I even realize I've stopped laughing, I'm crying. I can't control it, this is exactly what I was afraid of when it came to stopping the medications so suddenly. A tornado of emotions at any given moment. I look to Colson, panic bubbling up the more I overthink what's happening to my body right now. I'm unable to stop myself from sobbing to the point of hyperventilating.

His hand cups my jaw and he brings me closer, our foreheads pressed together. "Feelings suck, flower. I won't lie to you, this is going to be a rough detox for you. He had you on some serious shit. You're going to feel like everything is falling apart." He tucks my hair behind my ears. "But I'm right here, and you're okay. Just breathe for me."

Colson takes my hand and places it over his chest as he shows me how to breathe. Touching him makes me feel grounded. I nod to acknowledge his words as I take a deep breath in, holding it before slowly releasing. The tightness in my chest beginning to subside and my breathing feeling more relaxed.

"Good girl." He praises and I close my eyes and bask in the warmth it makes me feel.

"Why are you here?" It's been on my mind since he showed up.  What did he mean labeled assailant, was that really the reason? I wouldn't know, we don't get to watch the news here. I don't care what this man has done or why he's here, I'm already unhealthily attached to him. I just want to know.

He cradles my face. "Oh, flower." His rough fingers rub against my smooth skin. "I'm a very bad man, I've done very bad things." His thumb traces my bottom lip. "Does that scare you?"