You Are Mine

Chapter Six: Falling for the devil

AN: sugarspice_xo on archive of our own, only a matter of time before Wattpad removes this story too. Until that happens I'll keep posting it here. "Baddest"already has been switched over. xo

"You wait here." Colson says and has me stand against a wall at the side of the motel.

"Promise you'll be back." I quickly grab onto his shirt before he can walk away.

Please don't break my heart
I know that you might

His hands cup my face. "You silly, delicate, beautiful girl." He kisses my forehead. "I will be back for you, Flower. I promise."

I reluctantly let go and watch him creep along the building until he goes around a corner and I lose sight of him. I immediately fight my urge to chase after him.

"You need to follow him, he's too far away."

I bite on the inside of my cheek and fiddle with my fingers. "No. He told me to stay."

"He's not going to come back for you."

The anxiety in me rises. "Shut up." I shake my head and will the voice inside my head to silence. "He promised."

I tiptoe along the wall. I'm not going to chase him down, but maybe just a peek to see if he's close by. That couldn't hurt, right? I come to the edge of the wall, right where colson had turned the corner. I take extra care to make sure I'm careful not to be seen when I take my chance to look for him.

See, he's gone. You stupid pathetic girl.

I quickly hide myself against the wall. "He'll be back. Shut up! Shut up!"

I slowly sink to the ground, bringing my knees to my chest and wrapping my arms around myself. He'll be back for me. He promised. He's different. He's not like the one before.

I shake my head and try to block out that negative voice. He promised. Colson isn't like...him.

Flashback

"I've been waiting for you all day." I say as my boyfriend, Steven, tosses his gym bag in the hall closet.

"Why are you so bitchy?" He scoffs at me and removes his shoes.

My bottom lip trembles. "I'm not being bitchy, it's our anniversary. I just thought..." I stop short, I did it again. Why can't I speak without angering him, what is wrong with me?

"Listen, Kat. I don't know what you thought, and honestly I'm not in the mood to do this with you right now." He walks past me to go towards the bathroom. "You're exhausting."

My heart aches, why is it so hard to love me?

"I'm sorry." I say through the start of tears. "I'll try to be better."

"Heard that promise before." He slams the door and leaves me to sob in the sofa chair I've been curled up in.

"You are so unlovable, you know there's someone else. You'll never be enough."

I hug myself tighter. "I know."

I hear the shower going in the bathroom, he'll be in there for awhile. I stand on shaky legs, my anxiety sky rocketing as I walk towards the hall closet. I take a deep breath and reach for his gym bag. I shouldn't do this, it's unhealthy to go through your boyfriends phone, but that voice inside of me won't let it go.

Do it. You need to know.

My hands tremble as I unzip the duffel bag and begin picking through stevens belongings. In the bag I find his fresh, clean gym clothes still neatly folded. So working out after work tonight had clearly been a lie. I look in each pocket until I find a pack of condoms. An open pack, missing two from the box.