Listen To My Silence

your still here..?

the following book contains explicit/mature content, such as

•rape
•abuse
•use of drugs
•suicide
•self harm
•suicidal thoughts
•harsh words
•suicide notes
•eating disorder(s)
•negative thoughts
•mention of mental illnesses
•religion and spirituality

if you are easily triggered please click off of this book now.

you have been warned ..

...your still here?

don't you know how depressing this could get?

why won't you just leave ...?

..so be it...

now that i have you here ...

i bet your wondering who i am...

well

i was a human

i had a home

a family

a bestfriend ...a soulmate ...a girlfriend

i had a life

a full-filling life

but for every form of life ,theres always a good and a bad

some people have perfect fun lives

no not me

god didnt choose me to be special , or neither did the universe and this fucked up system i used to live.. in ..is..is just a huge big scam ..they set you up for failure before your even here your life is already planned out for you ,work til you die .

but im not there to talk about religion ..or spirituality ..or the system..fuck all of it ...it never mattered ..none of it and we care so much about how many likes we can get on a picture of video , how many people like us , how many boyfriends or girlfriends we have , body counts , grades , money , power ,drugs..well i can see why some of us cared about drugs .. i mean who wouldn't wanna smack on some shrooms after a long day of pure labor and dealing with bull shit ..

but hey ..that's neither here nor there ...anyways..

so wby exactly are you here ? what am i here to talk about? you ask..

im here to talk about why i did what i did...why you did what you did

well,not you ... someone else

someone ..horrible

i want you to pay attention to every date and person listed in these notes ...

i want you to help me find my peace

i dont wanna be stuck between life and death anymore

or between heaven and hell.. what ever you want to call this place

i want my soul to be at rest..

read my suicide letters ... help me move on

or not .. you see it's really your choice

i'd figure my own shit out if i could ...

but i can't

i'm dead