Still With You - A rainy day story

Lost without you

He carried himself to his feet and stood up weakly. The only thought in his mind was , I have to go.  With the sudden realization, he started running out of the studio. His face looked like a red strawberry from crying. He forgot all his stuff in the studio, as he ran, except his phone in the pocket of his black jacket. The staff saw Jungkook coming out still in tears, and tried to talk to him. "Jungkook are you... but he was already gone before the staff member could stop him.

Jungkook stopped in his tracks as he stepped outside. He finally heard the noise of the water drops falling loudly on the bare road and saw that it was raining hard. The streets were engulfed by the dark mist in the night as it only had a few lit streetlights. Even the crescent moon looked lonely in the starless sky, as though it was crying too, much like himself, for that it missed its starry companions. 

Even though he ran, he didn't know what to do or where to go. He was already getting drenched in the rain, water droplets sliding down his puffed-up cheeks... or was it tears? You couldn't tell them apart. He started walking down the street aimlessly away from the studio. I have to go to him, talk to him, he thought as he went. Tell him I'm sorry. That I love him. That I would never say such things again. That I couldn't bear the thought of losing him. Am I even worthy of his forgiveness? I cannot forgive myself for doing this to him, how would he? Questions and thoughts of guilt were boring a hole in Jungkook's brain.

The cold rain was the least of his concern which however now, was making him shiver even more. Instinctively he pulled his open jacket closer, zipped it up and put his hands in his pocket to keep them from getting cold when he felt his phone. He took it out and as he opened it, he saw the screensaver of a selfie of him and Jimin which made him stop dead in his tracks, feeling that pang of pain in his heart once again.

This was on my birthday, he remembered. Hyung really wanted me to kiss him on the cheek, in front of the camera on v app too! He smiled softly recalling Jimin naughtily asking for kisses. He pulled away that day because of the camera, he was feeling shy, although he really wanted to do it. His cotton-candy pink, soft, perfect cheeks were always irresistible. They had so much fun together that day doing everything Jungkook wanted. Jimin made it his job to make him the happiest on his birthday.

He couldn't help breaking down again, uncontrollable tears felt warm against his cheeks that were drenched in the rain. He saw a few steps at an entrance to a nearby restaurant and sat on them under the shade from the roof of the shop. He took a deep breath.

I have to go to Jimin hyung.

He took his phone and dialed Jimin, with his perfect face in the contact picture smiling at him.

I made that smile disappear.

He couldn't help thinking as he listened to the dial tone.