Sugawara x Daichi (I wish that I wasn't here)

Chapter 13: emotional disaster and sleepover part 1

Aaaaaaa- thank you again for 1.17 k reads, my God I'm so happy I could cry. I really appreciate this because I didn't think I would get this many waa..also TW: Self harm but anyways please enjoy!
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Sugawara's pov

A few weeks went by and I avoided Daichi everyday, except for when we have practice and I would just ignore him. I do feel guilty doing this..but it's for his own good...right? I mean, I've been stressed due to exams and college is in about 4 months.

After another day of practice, I walked home alone and walked into my house, I throw my bag on the floor and heads to the bathroom, I strip off my clothes and stare down at my pale skin, there were lines of old and new cuts that littered over my body. Sighing softly, I ran a warm bath and puts some bubbles into the tub, I rest my phone on the side of the bath and gets in.

A few minutes later of laying there, the voice came back. Why now?! 'I never going away, unless you end it..you are worthless, your boyfriend doesn't want you', I burst into tears, grabs a razor blade that I didn't bother to get rid of. I stared at it for a while, 'my only friend that can bring comfort to me..' I thought to myself, I brought the blade to my arm and started cutting, reopening old cuts and making new ones and the same with my legs. The water turned crimson and I felt numb.

After a few minutes, my eyes widen and I could feel the burning sensation of the cuts and the blood trickled down, I scream and starts to thrash around in the bath. I cried harder then I have ever had. I grabbed my phone and opened the chat with Daichi, hesitated and closes it. I go to a chat with Oikawa and sends him a message.

Mama_Crow: Tooru! Help!

The Great_King: Koushi? What's wrong? Don't say you did it again!

Mama_Crow: I'm sorry, the voice came back..Tooru, please help me!

The Great_King: I'm running now, like literally..hold on Ko.

I closed the chat and brought my knees to my chest as I cried, I felt so fucking weak..I hate this. I don't know how long I was sat there for, but I felt someone pull me out of the bathtub. I didn't hear anyone coming in. I look up to see Oikawa and Iwaizumi. Iwaizumi grabbed the first aid kit as Oikawa sat me on the ground and unplug the tub, the two brunettes started to clean the many little cuts and wraps the upper of my legs and the whole of my arm.

"Ko..I thought this stopped", Oikawa said and I just stared down to the ground, "I lied..I'm sorry! I'm really am, I just...", I croaked. Oikawa hugs me tightly and ruffles my hair a little. "I will get you some clothes, so you can change", he left and I kept my gaze on the ground, "how long has this been going on for?" Iwaizumi asked, I finally looked up and stared at him. "A few weeks.."

Oikawa came back and hands me a black hoodie, boxers and sweat pants, I quickly get changed and looks at them. "Well, it's Friday and we aren't leaving you alone", Iwaizumi and I stared at Oikawa, our eyebrows raised.

"So how would about a sleepover till Sunday?" Oikawa beamed. "Why to Sunday? No offense Koushi, but like I doubt he wants us to-" Iwaizumi said, but I cut him off. "I don't mind that".

Oikawa grinned.