Why Me!!

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Jennie's POV

I woke up early because how can I sleep properly right??
The person I love is suffering because of me and I can't help but to cry I hate my self for hurting her. But this time I will fix all of this shit, I will wait for lisa and I will get her back again. After thinking those things I went up straight to the bathroom to wash my body before I go the hospital.

Im here now outside the hospital when someone called my name...

Jeduekk!!!! Jisoo said while approaching me..

Unnie how's lisa I ask??

Still sleeping she replied..

Jen since your here now I will get some rest too, take care of your lisa okay!!!

And what she said melted me.. lisa's friends can still trust me after all i've done....

Sure unnie thank you and I gave her a hug...

I opened the door and saw lisa who is lying at her bed with her lifeless body.. and what hurt me more is seeing her with a lot of tubes attach to her body!!!!  how can you handle all this pain???

I ask the doctor if he can give me time with lisa and gladly he agreed...

I sat to the chair that is located at the side of her bed... Silence... All I can hear is the monitor beside her, so i decided to grab her hand and started to talk...

L-lili
H-how are you?? Im so sorry, I cried

Stupid me right im talking to someone who cant reply.. But still.

Its been a year since I last visited and saw you... Your still beautiful my love... But your too skinny dont tell me your not eating properly..
Your not asking but I will tell you.. About me and Kai were done I thought he will be responsible but I was wrong. And choosing him over you was the biggest mistake I did in my whole life... I lowered my head and cry even harder...

Moments later I put back my attention to her..

Lisa plss wake up baby!!! Im here now pls, I promise we will be together again plss wake up can you??

And w-why did you catch that bullet huh? are you crazy?? It was suppose to be me lisa not youu!!! It was suppose to be me who's suffering, who's lying to that fucking bed right??
why lili why??

I didn't know that you suffer a lot because of me and im scared when you wake up... w-will you forgive me? am I still the one who own's your heart?

Lili I LOVE YOU PLS DONT LEAVE!!!

When i get tired of crying I rested my head to her shoulder and close my eyes to sleep while holding her hand tightly..

Jisoo's POV

My girlfriend wants to visit  lisa and who am I to say no!!!! She told me that I can stay here because im tired but i dont want her to drive alone so that i fix our things and sat on the drivers sit and went directly to the hospital... Lisa's parents are also coming later so we need to go there.

We arrived at the parking lot at exactly 1:00pm in the afternoon, Rose told me that I can go first because she will just buy some food for us and Jennie.

I was about to knock when I saw jennie who is now sleeping with lisa, and I pity her.... I dont want to see the both of them like this!!! back then i was just watching them laughing together and now!!!! how can this be???

I know that jennie hurt lisa but, I dont have the right to stop jennie from taking care of Lisa because i can see in her eyes the guilt and pain when she's seeing lisa like this....