F-Flowers?!

Pain

Maddison's POV

Deku was right. Bakugo's cooking is the best.
He made pancakes for everyone and was just standing in the kitchen, looking at his phone and occasionally looked up. His hair was messy, probably didn't do anything to it after he woke up, and he was wearing a black t-shirt with a skull. My gaze drifted to his face, concentrated on something on his phone. Then our eyes met as he looked up. I immediately looked away and tried to look normal, shoving a mouthful of pancake in my mouth. Maybe that was a bad idea, I could feel the flowers rising before. I managed to keep them and the pancake down although a heavy feeling in my chest stayed. When I looked up again I saw him starting to walk over.

" OI, Why aren't you eating? "

I stared at my plate and realised I had barely touched it.

" Umm, I-it's just that- "
" If you don't like it you could just say, dumbass."
" N-No! It's not that! I- it's just hard to eat when I have flowers in my throat. "
" What so your crush is here in the room? "
" No. . ? M- maybe. . . yeah. . . "

I glanced up at him, he looked unamused and I gave a sheepish smile.

" I-it's ok. I'm feeling a lot better now s-so I can eat now. No need to fuss over anything! heh. "
I ate another mouthful to prove my point.

" Ugh, whatever, squid. "

Phew. I think I got him off my back for a while at least. My meds will start to kick in soon and hopefully I'll feel better. Everyone in the room seemed fine, so I matched their mood. No point bringing everyone else down with my problems.

After I had finished eating, Deku decided we were going to go out. I went back up to my room and grabbed some clothes. A long orange hoodie and shorts, just long enough to see the bottom under the jumper. I put on platform trainers and knee-high socks. Then made my way to the bathroom, where I examined my face in the mirror. The flowers decorated it perfectly and matched my outfit, though it seemed like something was missing. I found a black mask and put it on to see how it looked. Decent. I met Deku downstairs and we set off.

I enjoyed the day out but couldn't wait to go back to bed. I flopped down, exhausted from the day. I kicked my shoes of and curled up on the bed. I just relaxed and my mind started to wander. I was so close to dying, and it could just happen one day. Nobody would notice. And they will forget me. Tears soaked my bed as my mind flowed through these thoughts. Suddenly there was a knock at my door and a familiar voice.

" OI, open the door. "
" I-it's open, just come in. "

I tried to dry my tears and sound like I haven't been crying. I need to smile, smiling is normal.

He walked in and looked at me then sat on the bed. He seemed concerned. It's weird seeing him concerned, it doesn't happen often.

" Stop smiling Squid, I know it's fake. "
" S-sorry, I'm not that convincing then? Heh. "
" I'm just going to get to the point. I know there is something not right, Deku won't tell me. Your the only one who will. "
" Athazagoraphobia. "
" Hah? "
" Ever heard of it? "
" Does it sound like it? "
" heh, sorry. It's the fear of being forgotten"

I looked down at my hands, playing with my fingers and the bedsheet. I could feel him staring at me, I tried not to make eye contact.

" That's why I hate this so much. Not the flowers or coughing fits, knowing any moment could be my last and I could just one day not show up. And no one will notice. And they'll forget I ever existed. "
Once again tears drifted down my face onto the bed. I slowly lifted my head to meet him. He cupped my face in his hands and brought me up to his level.

" Your not going to die. We'll get through, like always. And if somehow you do, We won't forget you. I'll make sure of it. "

Then he pulled me into a hug.
I was too stunned to speak. Bakugo. The person who has teased me for years. Hugging me. And he cares? A-about me dying? I don't understand, this must be a joke.

" Anyway I came to tell you that, um. Never mind. "

And he's gone.
That must be a joke. But why would he do that?

Weeks past and Maddie just got worse, forcing herself out of bed in the week and trying to act naturally as to not raise questions. Of course they suspected something but they could never get the time to speak to her. Every time she was in her room she was asleep, or that's what they thought.

She only had around a month and a half left, and she counted down everyday. Thoughts of dying were the only things left. Anxiety and fear filled her head every second. The uncertainty of this disease was almost literally killing her, physically draining her, melancholy soaking her.

It got to a point where she wouldn't even turn up for classes anymore. Lying in bed, barely enough strength to eat, let alone move. All the self-loathing is dragging her down into a pit of despair. Deku tries to visit her everyday but she never opens the door, only confirming she's still alive.

A few more weeks went by and finally she started to open the door to him. Relieved, he started to look after her, bringing her food and checking in often, trying to be supportive but honestly clueless on what to do. She was coughing up flowers almost all the time, even when she was alone. Bakugo had come to visit her a few times, though he couldn't stay long as her condition would drastically worsen.

It could happen any day now. Only a week until her 'expiration date'. The anticipation driving her mad.

One day. . .

I decided today I was going to go out. If I was going to die, I wanted to be outside at least one last time. I got dressed, a hoodie to cover my face and a long skirt. I grabbed my purse and set off.

As I got to the shops I felt dizzy, but I ignored it. Probably where I'm not used to walking. Browsing the isles, I could feel my feet getting weak. Oh well. I grabbed something off the shelf and went to pay for it, I didn't really care what it was. I got to the counter and paid. Walking away, my vision went. And the last the I felt was the warm concrete floor.

((Back with my notorious cliff hangers!! Why am I so stupid. Anyways, there is two endings so I'm probably going to write both.
See ya!
Word count- 1177))