Started from a dream

The wrong past

4 years ago i wasnt the girl you see today
I was a girl that was in a carefree way
You may think that its a good thing
But when you know its the dark thing

I was a bully that was bullied
Trapped in a glass trying to be freed
I beat people that beat me first
Since attention is what they thirst

I was in the dark world trying to fight
Tryings to look for even a speck of light
People thought i was a guy because of it
"do they want me to get beaten while i sit?"

I tried to stay away from fighting them
But they go to me like i was a gem
Every night i just stare in the wall
While i clench my fist as tears fall

Why me? Im a girl...theyre all boys
Do they just look at me as a toy?
Im not the girl you see that looks for sex
Im also not the girl that you can just go check

In the next years of my life i changed
But in return ive become derange
I make people smile even though i was hurting inside
Since the wrong past was something that i should hide

I know that my life is not yet over
But those things will always hunt me forever
I know until this thing will never last
Because i was stuck in the wrong past