what was i thinking?

part 5

A/N: yeah we just start were we ended last part! Also I think this part will get like a little more interesting like with more details yk? Also TW⚠️ brief-mentions of self-harm ⚠️
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I open the door and I look down as I walk past Billie, I can feel her eyes looking at my arms. To my surprise she doesn't say anything about it, although I know for a fact that she saw it. It's pretty obvious because they got deep, a little bit to deep.
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As I walk in to finneas' old room, I let myself fall down on the bed, thinking about what I'm going to do next, I grab my phone and decide to look Billie up on Instagram, I haven't had time alone without her and it would be stupid to do that when she was looking.

I type "billieeilish" in the search area, there is one person with a blue check, that's on top, I click on it. And I see it's literally Billie, the Billie who's showering in the room next to me, I click on the follow button.
Apparently she is famous or sum. When she said she was a singer, I didn't think she was like a big singer with lots of followers, but she is. That's actually so cool, but she is only like 16 or 17, she must be really good to be famous at that young age. I decide to listen to her music.
As idontwannabewithyouanymore plays I think *omg I know this song, it's such a good song although I didn't know it was billie's, her voice is so beautiful!*

I can feel my eyes get tired, I decide to put my phone away and sleep a little.

Someone whispers my name "Lee, wake up, breakfast is ready." I can hear the footsteps coming closer and the voice is getting louder, I recognise Billie's voice now, I look at her and say "hm morning Billie,what are you doing today?" "I have an interview with some tv show, and imma drive and talk with you, did you forget?"
"Oh okay, actually can I talk to you now?"
"I'm sorry but you can't, I have to drive away in about five minutes for my interview, I am home at 1 pm so we can talk and drive then!"
"Oh uh that's okay! See you at 1 pm." I say kinda disappointed.

                -Billie-
⚠️mentions of self harm
As I drive to the interview place I think about Lee, I know what she did yesterday, I noticed the cuts on her arms but I decided not to mention it, I think imma ask her today, I hope she opens up to me 'cause I wanna protect her at all costs, I know her for like 2 days but I do fucking care for her. I arrived at the place for the interview, I fucking hate to do these but i have to, it's a part of my job yk. "Okay billie our last question,what's is your favourite song of the EP "don't smile at me"?
"I don't know man, I like them all in other ways."

Ugh finally that fucking boring  interview is done, I have to get to Lee real fast cause I wanna speak to her. I want her to be happy and not to feel lonely now 'cause I think she only knows me and my family in highland park. As I arrived home and open the door, i hear Maggie talking to Patrick. I stood in the doorway for a sec to hear what said Maggie to Patrick. "Lee stays here for a while, she isn't feeling well and her parents are also not feeling well! So she can stay here, if you are okay with it Patrick." Maggie said.
"Well I am totally okay with that Maggie! But should we talk to her parents first? Patrick said.
I know Lee doesn't want that but dad is right tho it's a good thing to inform her parents about where she is and who we are. I walk inside. "Helloooo I'm home!" I almost shout. Maggie and Patrick immediately stopped talking. "Hey bil! How was the interview?" Maggie asks. "Well it was okay, just like all the other stupid interviews. I have to get to Lee now! I say while walking to the stairs "Bil wait, can you ask her if she can tell her mom she is at ours, if she hasn't told her mom already?" Maggie asks. "Yeah sure!" I say while walking upstairs.
As I head to my room I think about Lee, her beautiful eyes, her light purple hair, her voice, her cute lil' nose, her soft- looking lips, her little ears with all those pretty earrings, she has like 4 earrings on both ears! her almost always red cheeks, Damn she is so pretty.