what was i thinking?

Part 8

A/N: you'll notice I kinda changed the way a chapter looks! Before I used bold letters if someone else was talking, I don't do this anymore bc I keep forgetting and tbh it doesn't really matter and I'm lazy lmao sorry. I also had a break, haven't written anything in a long long time, I was busy with other things and didn't have any inspiration for this story

-lee's pov

i wake up, seeing billie's pretty face. I decided to go early in the morning to not bother Billie and her family.

When I open the door I hear footsteps approach me, I walk to the porch. "Lee?" I heard a familiar voice say. I walked further. "Lee wait!" The girl called me again and now she ran towards me, grabbing my wrist. I turn around looking at the black-haired girl, I could better say woman though. "Lee where are you going?" She asks. "I'm going home to pick up my stuff, I don't wanna bother you and your family. When I'm back I'll rent an apartment, so that I don't have to be at yours all the time, because I could imagine that you'll get tired of that and you don't want me in your house."
I say with an annoyed tone.
"Lee...I...I don't be so fucking blind. Of course I want you in my house, you, Lee, you are the best fucking thing that has ever happened to me, it's you. I fucking love you and I don't wanna lose you!" Billie almost cried, I can see the tears in her eyes. I didn't know what to say so I just hummed and walked to the bus stop. "Lee I am in love with you, do I really have to spell it out? Isn't it obvious? Lee please, come back to my house after you got your stuff, it doesn't bother my parents at all and you can have all your stuff in Finneas' old room!" She says. I stopped and rethink my choices, I hate to let her behind like this. "Billie it's not that I will be gone forever you know, after I got my stuff I'll come back and I will search for an apartment, that might take a few days so if it's possible I want to stay with you for a few days, see you Billie! I love you too" I whispered the last part. She grabbed my back and turned me around hugged me tight, when she let go she said "your bus it's driving, you little dumb fool."
"Hey Billie that's your fault you were the one that hugged me for 2 minutes!" We laughed it off.
"I'll just wait for the next one."

One hour later
"Billie I really have to go now! Bye babe!" I said in a hurry because the next bus is almost driving away.
"Bye dumb ass, I love you! I'll come pick you up when your done! Call me." she said with that sweet little voice of her.
I walk in to the bus, checked in and put my music on. The way home was horrible, I thought a lot about things, about my parents, home, billie, myself. I hate thinking that much because I get drained in my thoughts and that just kills me. I grabbed my book, and read some pages.

The bus arrived, I checked out, and walked down the street. it took a lot longer than I thought, probably because the last time I was here, I ran instead of walked. I stood in front of my house, I wanted to turn back but knew I couldn't so I walked inside. I got upstairs as fast as I could, packed my bags and walked to the door again, when I touched the door knob with my hand I heard a voice "Lee? Is that you?" it was my mom, shit. "uhh no I am a ghost" I answered. "Lee why would you joke about that what the fuck!" she yelled, I heard her footsteps coming closer. "sorry mom yes it's me" I admitted, god I hate it here. " I just came to get some stuff, I will be staying with a friend of mine for some days! She lives in highland park, so that's not too far away." I explained. "no you're not, you have school on Monday, your grades aren't high enough so you will be staying home, I won't let you go, I'll take your phone away too, just go to your room now!" she commanded. "but mom I have school in 3 weeks, its spring break-" she interrupted me "I don't care go to your room, and give me your phone." she got mad, so I went to my room with my stuff, I didn't give my phone yet though, she didn't even notice. I texted billie as fast as possible saying:

billie<3

you: hey bils, my mom is keeping me here and not letting me go, she'll take my phone away too, I'll try to sneak out tonight at 10, I will take the bus to you..."

billie <3: wait, I'll be at the end of your street with my car at 10:30

you: okay, bye! please don't call me and delete these messages, the mom will maybe search my phone.

billie <3: okay I will:)

"Lee bring your phone now! I give you one minute!" I fast deleted the messages, I gave her my phone.

I didn't know what to do now for a whole afternoon plus evening so I just slept a bit and read a book.

5 hours later
I woke up from a long nap, took a shower, packed some extra things, read more, drew and wrote in my notebook. I went downstairs to get some food because I was starving, seeing my mom wasn't home, she left a note saying "getting groceries, your dad comes home anytime, he knows about everything. - Mom"