You're not straight <Jikook>

|6|💌Admitting💌

I don't have any motivation or ideas for this episode will probably be trashy as fuck! I really don't know if I want to continue this book anymore. I don't really like it that much as I use to plus I'm working on other books.

It's the second day here and everything has been great. It's been fun to be here, but I feel like jimin and me might have some tension between us. Like sexual tension? It sounds weird to say that but it feels like it. I admit I might like jimin, and I accept that but it's just weird and wrong. It's just I always felt like I was straight. I am straight, not gay being gay is wrong! I took a nap since I was tired.

I woke up and rubbed my eyes, I looked at the clock but it was blurry so I had to get closer. 3:06AM it's late... how long did I sleep for? I get off the couch and see nobody. I wonder why, I then hear footsteps so I assume someone woke up or is just getting a drink. I see jimin walking downstairs and he notices me.

Jimin: Hey jungkook.
Jungkook: Hey jimin. Why is nobody here?
Jimin: Oh right, I have a lot of extra bedrooms so there sleeping there. You fell asleep on the couch so I didn't want to wake you up sorry!
Jungkook: It's fine!

Jimin smiled at me. He then walks to the kitchen.

Jungkook: Midnight snack?
Jimin: It's past midnight but I'm kinda hungry.
Jungkook: Just eat something small or you'll get sick.
Jimin: Mhm!

Jimin smiled and rubbed his droopy eyes, a yawn leaves his puffy lips. Jimin gets goldfish and walks over to the couch. Jimin sits down next to me and puts his head on my shoulder. My heart races like it's in a marathon. Jimin looks over at me and grabs the remote. He then turns the tv on and starts looking through some kdramas. Jimin picks a kdrama called color rush (I highly recommend color rush it's on Viki and it's a gay kdrama, it has short episodes sadly there is only 8 but it's still a great kdrama!)
Jimin then starts playing it and we start watching. Few hours passed and we already finished color rush we where now watching The uncanny counter. (I also recommend this one it's free and on Netflix there is 16 episodes and there about 1-2 hours just make sure to get tissues some episodes are really sad especially the one with ms chu 😭) me and jimin where on episode 3 when I heard soft snoring coming from jimin's side. I looked over and saw he was still awake.

Jungkook: Are you tired?
Jimin: yawn no.
Jungkook: Ok then.

Jimin looked nervous for some reason, maybe something happened?

Jungkook: Hey uhm jimin is everything okay?
Jimin: Yeah it's fine!

I nod and look back at the tv. 3 hours passed so I decide to look at jimin to see if he fell asleep. His eyes are still open but he still seems nervous.

Jungkook: Jimin are you really okay?
Jimin: I need to tell you something.
Jungkook: What is it?
Jimin: I-I... Like.
Jungkook: You like who?
Jimin: Y-Yumi!
Jungkook: Yumi?
Jimin: Aish no! I like...
Jungkook: So you don't like yumi?
Jimin: No I like you Jungkook!

I felt shocked, he likes me? I froze up and widened my eyes. My heart started beating 4x faster. My palms felt sweaty and my heart felt fuzzy. What is this feeling?? I feel so... Good?

Jungkook: Y-you like me?
Jimin: Y-yes.

For some reason my mind told me to say I like him back, I don't! I don't like jimin I can't like him.

Jungkook: I don't like you back.
Jimin: O-oh....

What the actual fuck! Why did I say that, I didn't meant to say that at all! It just came out. Oh god jimin looks like he's gonna cry. What the fuck, look at what I did! I'm freaking out what do I do?

Jimin: That's fine! I understand.
Jungkook: N-no I-
Jimin: It's fine! I shouldn't have even told you.

With that jimin got up and smiled. He went upstairs. What is wrong with me! I didn't move and just stayed there. I kept analyzing what i just did. I was mad at myself for saying that. I didn't mean it! Well I Don't like him right?.... I can't like him.

I'm so sorry for the short chapter, I don't have the motivation for this book plus is getting boring. I don't know if I want to continue this book but I'll try.