The 10th pillar: The pillar of melancholy (x reader?)

Chp 7

Heres a early chap i wrote in my free time enjoy! I will be working on the next chap soon!

"Theres no point in shouting a lot now." Rengoku said. "The wound on my stomach is opening. And you don't have many minor injuries either." I glanced at him held onto his shoulder. "Kamado my boy," He said glancing at him then turning to look at me. "Y/n. If i die, It'll be my loss."

Your loss?

Your loss?!

Dont you know that It'll be my loss too?

Don't hurt me yeah? Don't break my heart and stay alive...

Yeah?

"Come over here. Let's have a final chat." 

No...

Tanjiro paused before walking over and sitting down on his knees in front of him while i was a bit more to the left. "I remembered some things. When i saw the dreams of my past." He said to tanjiro.

No. No No no...

"You should try to go to my parents house. The Rengoku estate. There should be some notes, Which the old flame pillars left behind. My father often read those but... I never read them. So i don't know whats inside of them." He said while tanjiro looked at him, worried. "There may be some record. About this 'dance of the fire god you were talking about." He said as the demons arm in his stomach started to disintegrate. I watched in panic and horror as he kept talking to the boy, a puddle of his own blood, started to form on the ground where he sat.

Please...

Please don't leave me.

"Inside that train, i saw that girl protect the humans despite her bleeding out." he said. "Live with your chest high."

"Y/n." i looked up.

You mean so much to me. Please don't leave me.

"I know it must hurt you to see me like this. But Believe in yourself. Follow the path you believe is best for you. Believe in your peers once in a while." He said. "Don't get too upset about my death. Keep moving forward. If you are a pillar, you do the same as everyone else. no matter who they are. Young buds can't get plucked. You are a strong girl, i know you can do it. Move on. Keep going. Look for the bright future ahead of you. Here. take my cape y/n. I'm sure it would look good on you." he said as he took it off and handed it to me. "Please Kyoujuro-san..." i said looking at him. He smiled and said "Don't worry about me. You still have the others as well!" He then turned to tanjiro.

No not again. Please. Don't die on me.

"Kamado my boy, Inogashira my boy, golden boy, Y/n. Keep moving. You all have ways to grow." he said with his bright smile. "And next time you will become pillars who will support the demon hunters." He said directing the last sentence to the three newer slayers.

"I believe in you. I truley do." And with that, Tanjiro broke down crying.

'Hold it in. Don't make him feel bad.'

I looked up to him and let out a small gasp.

His smile...

It's so bright. So please...

i watched silently as his smile faded, and he slowly went limp.

why didn't you stay...? why didn't you stay here? Here with everyone. Here with me?!

I gripped tightly on his dirtied cape...

And screamed.

Pain, loneliness, heartbreak, fear. everything I've been keeping in for years comes crashing down as i let my tears flow from my eyes. And for the first time in years, I cried.

I just stared at Rengoku's cape, still in my arms as the three spoke to each other. I head bits and pieces from their conversation. "a lot of techniques-" "damage... Bare minimum."

why does this always have to happen? I just stood there. I did nothing. Useless. Weak. My thoughts managed to distract me from all the noise the trio was making as the kakushi's quickly arrived and started with their jobs.

~TIMESKIP~ (Time for a break yall. Take sum snacks- ;-;🍦🍕🌭🥪🍙🍡🍭🎂🍿🍰🍧🍨🍪🍩🍫🍯🧃🧋🧁🥮🍜🍔🥞🥐)

Tanjiro had gone off to see Senjuro to deliver his last words. I had refused to let go of Rengoku's cape but i ended up letting them clean it. But once i got it back, I immediately put it on the way rengoku always had it on. My sword was replaced with a new one, which was place on the doorstep of my estate. It had been around 3 weeks since he died.

For 3 weeks, no one has seen me anywhere. For 3 weeks, I locked myself in my room, my head still replaying the last moments of his life. If i had been stronger. If only i had moved. If only i had kept attacking the demon. Then maybe he wouldn't have died. Maybe akaza was right. We are still humans after all. Demons were stronger then us. Demons would always beat humans.

Once again. I felt tears start to form. He was always so bright...

"Y/n-san?" i heard a voice from the opposite side of the door.

"What." i answered coldly my voice still shaky.

"Its been 3 weeks. You should come out." shinbou's voice called out as i sighed and wiped away my tears. Mumbling a small "whatever" under my breath, i stood up and cleaned myself up. And headed to the pillar meeting.

Okay yall please vote for chap 8 i need help- yall know there gon be manga spoilers as you know. So i was wondering if reader should go on the next mission which is prob gonna be like 3 chap long or not vote here pls

Yes reader should go on the mission to red light district.

No reader should not go.