Hanker - always and forever.

BLOSSOM

Blossom

"No", I said and hung up the phone.

Sometimes I felt bad for hanging up to Gunfer, but other times, like this one, not so much.

While getting back to the game on TV, my phone started to ring again.

Mom

This night is just getting better and better...

"Who's your favorite child?",I answered.

-"Very funny. I'm so amused."

"I know. I aim to please."

-"Gunfer just texted me and said you are not coming to the meeting."

"Mom, it's pandemic. How I could I even come to that thing?"

-"Don't act dumb with me. You know I mean online. It is very important to your father."

"No. it's not." And it really wasn't. I talked to my father couple of hours ago and he couldn't care less. It was a meeting with his lawyers where he decides how to announce his early retirement. It wouldn't be a problem ussualy, but the company where he has worked his whole life is in the middle of the biggest takeover in its history. Still, dad isn't too worried about it. He has dedicated everything to his firm and now it's time to have some rest and piece.

"Look, mom, I know that you're worried, but everything is gonna be fine. He's gonna retire and the two of you will enjoy it. Just relax"

-"I know, you're right."She said quietly.

"Alright, it's late, I have to have some rest, I have a big day tomorrow"

-"Oh, yeah, you're starting your preparations for the new show tomorrow. Are you excited?"

"Of course I am. Finally I have something to do in this stupid pandemic". Also, I have one more reason to be excited about that show, but that is not something that my mother should know.

"Anyway, really mom, I gotta go. Call you later, send hugs to dad"

-"Love you , honey, good luck tomorrow."

I hung up, yet again, and started to watch the game. But this time it wasn't he phone that kept away from the TV. It was the "other reason"of my excitement for the new show.

I grabed my phone and looked her up. Again.

Hande Ercel.

I've know who is she long before they said she would be my new costar. Everyone knows who is Hande Ercel. But never gave her a second thought until now. I kept scrolling and kept wondering how is it possible that I never gave a second thought to Hande Ercel. Everything about her was mesmerazing. Those big brown eyes, long shiny hair, and LONG ASS legs. Yeah, I was a leg man. Photo by photo, I realized it's been days since I started thinking about Hande Ercel. Shit, what the fuck? She is gonna be my new costar, I gotta act profesionally. And also, she has a boyfriend. Fuck, that thought left a bitter taste in my mouth. Again,what the actual fuck?

I locked my phone and tried to focus on the game.

But,still, I couldn't deny my excitment for our first zoom meeting tomorrow. Is she really the person the media is portaying her to be? I assumed not, because if there is one thing I hate the most is the way turkish people in the press are treating my female collegues. But still, after watching some of her interviews (ok, all of her interviews), I can't say I haven't noticed how uptight she is. Not so much uptight, but how careful with every word she is. Didn't like that, because I'm type of the person who says whatever is on my mind.