Troubled heart

Chapter 1: An interesting encounter

As you were going to start at your new job. Excitement rushed through your veins as you began running down the busy streets and past groups of people, who were talking about a seemingly popular idol group. After looking at the given directions you had finally made it to your destination. Takanashi productions.

"Y/N-san". Cried out a voice from just outside the building. Of course you recognized the sweet and angelic voice of your best friend, who you hadn't seen for a long time. Her eyes twinkled as she caught sight of you and she made her way towards you.

"Tsumugi-san". Your excitement grew even more as you hadn't seen her since the day you moved to England with your father. You gave Tsumugi a quick hug not wanting to remember him. Though you had to try and not wince as the painful bruises on your arms were embraced by her.

When you both made your way to the entrance you felt something vibrate in your blazer pocket. When you realized it was your phone, you grabbed it. However, it turned out to be your father and in that instant all that built up excitement turned into nothing but fear and despair. Thoughts begun filling your mind and all the horrible memories began to surface. You hadn't noticed Tsumugi turning towards you and becoming concerned. You suddenly felt a light tap on the shoulder and were brought back to reality.

"Are you ok? you look kind of pale". Tsumugi asked wondering if she should call someone.

You started getting your bearings again and turned to your friend and gave her a fake but convincing smile. "I'm ok, just went a little giddy". You replied still smiling.

"If you say so". Happy that it was nothing serious and that you're ok, not knowing the truth as to why you looked so ill. You felt your stomach twist with the guilt of lying to your friend.

She started to head inside the building and you continued to ignore your father, who still kept trying to call you. You were lead into a room that was big and spacious, with a neatly polished floor, many lights and mirrors. Suddenly you let out a high pitched scream as you were tapped on the shoulder from behind. The person behind was so close that you could feel the warmth of their breath on your neck, giving you Goosebumps. 

"sorry please don't scream". The sound was what sounded like a young boy. His voice was sincere and concerned. You couldn't help but feel your heart pounding and going bright red in the face. You were really embarrassed as you had let out a scream loud enough for the whole building to hear you. You started to feel safe and wondered what it would be like if he held you in his arms. Those thoughts were stopped and you shook your head to dismiss them as soon as he asked "Is there anything we could help you with?". 

You quickly turned to face the figure and bowed your head. "I apologise... I'll be the assistant manager, my name is L/N Y/N, thank you". You heard a quiet sound coming from the guy and realized that he was trying to hold in his laughter along with others that were supposedly behind him. As you raised your head ever so slightly you caught a glimpse of who was behind you. 

"IDOLISH7!!". You shouted in disbelief. You couldn't believe your eyes; your favourite idol group was standing right in front of you. You looked at the one that was standing behind you and couldn't help but blush. He was the one and only Riku Nanase, his red hair was bright and looked beautiful. Of course you'd think that though as he was your favourite.

You hadn't noticed that the idol group were staring at you with their eyes twinkling with delight. Confused and curious you asked " why are you looking at me like that?". 

The boys didn't even answer the question and instead averted their eyes from your gaze. Then you felt your hand being lifted up and a pair of lips kissed it. You looked up surprised to see Rokuya Nagi kissing your hand as if it was something delicate and could break at any moment. You froze, one of idolish7's beautiful men, who was known for his grace, was kissing YOUR hand.

"Nagi-san, stop that you're frightening her".  You could tell without looking that it was the one and only Izumi Mitsuki. His voice was really cute and stern, he seemed as though he was worried for you and you couldn't help but chuckle. You felt like all eyes were on you and indeed they were. Again you couldn't help but feel embarrassed and laughed nervously. 

Then the door swung open and standing in the doorway was the president of productions, Tsumugi and Banri. Because you were startled by the sudden opening of the door you bowed your head once again. 

" H...h... hello I'm excited to be working with you". 

There was an awkward silence and you could hear footsteps coming closer and closer. You looked up and saw that Riku was face to face with you, you were closer to each other than before. When your eyes met, you looked deep into his eyes and they were a beautiful shade of orangey red, like the sun set after a beautiful day. You couldn't help but blush at his beautiful feature and didn't notice him also looking deep into your shiny E/C eyes as well. The moment came to an end when you heard someone cough. It was the president and he had something to say.

"your next concert is coming up soon so may I suggest that you start getting things ready please". He said wanting the awkward silence to come to an end. Everyone agreed and made their way to start warming up. Then your phone started ringing and you made your way out the room. You looked to see who it was and almost dropped it. Again, it was your father and you decided to pick it up this time.

"Hello..."

"..."

"hello..."

"hello...Y/N"

"what do you want from me?"

"I want  you to come home this instant, you know you couldn't survive in the world without me after all I'm not the one who killed their own mother"

"I didn't kill her, so why did she kill herself?"

"because she couldn't have the one thing she wanted when we divorced...you"

Those words stabbed you in the heart and caused you to feel guilt, you were the reason your mother died. You were the reason your father didn't care about you. It was all your fault, you looked at the bruises on your upper arms. As a result, you felt like you deserved to be punished after everything that had happened leading to this point. However, you remembered being greeted by Idolish7 just a few minutes ago and all those bad thoughts were swept away in an instant.

"You don't control my life anymore, I have a new job now and I'm working alongside my best friend, so in other words I no longer want or need you". You hung up on your father and made your way back to the room with a smile on your face. You felt happy and was really excited to see the concert.