Along The Way

Happy

THEZZA

Alam niyo ba ang pakiramdam na parang kinokontrol kayo ng iba? At wala kayong magawa kasi pakiramdam niyo hindi kayo malakas para ipaglaban ang damdamin niyo?

The dinner at La Guerva Hotel was cancelled. Tita Rosie told me and Symon. She's fine now but her doctor told her to avoid anything that could cause stress.

It's crazy that I'm still worried for her despite of what she have said. I didn't even bring that topic again. I have no plans to.

Today is Friday and I am already here in school. Si Mr. Hotdog yung naghatid sa akin. Well, Mr. Hotdog because he's a fat guy.

I was absent yesterday because I was not in the mood. There are many reasons, but Tita Rosie is the main one. Not because I took care of her—kasi hindi naman talaga, but because I was empty and down because of everything that's happening.

I feel like I'm traveling with no direction. My life is too unexpected to handle. I don't even think what will happen next. Maybe it would somehow surprise me. Maybe it would somehow make me happy. I don't know. Everything... Everything is happening so fast in my life.

"Miss Hail?"

Napabalik ako sa reyalidad na nasa room pala ako ngayon. Mr. John is lecturing about something. I didn't even care to listen because I was damn so occupied.

"Yes, sir?" My voice sounds weak.

"You got the highest score in our first long quiz. Congratulations!" He said with a smile on his face and everyone clapped. I didn't know that. But I'm glad. I didn't even study about that test but I guess miracle happens.

"Okay, that's all. Class dismissed."

My classmates started packing their things. Mr. John left. But me? I just shrugged off.

"Nag-break kayo ng jowa mo, Thezza?"

I looked at Danica with my tired eyes. "No, he's not my boyfriend."
She laughed a little. "E, bakit parang matamlay ka? Is there any problem? Maybe I can help?"

I smiled at her. "Thanks, but I don't have any problem." Napakunot ang noo niya. "Thezza, it's obvious. Don't worry, I won't force you to share it. I'll just pray for you." She smiled genuinely. She's so sweet and cute. "Thank you." I forced my lips to form a realistic smile.

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Weeks had passed. Tita Rosie finally gained her full energy that's why she's back to work now. Our conversation in her house has become too casual after that day. I was bored but thanks to Darlene and Yaya Issa, hindi rin tumagal ang pagkainip na 'yon.

Symon...

I did not see Symon for the past few weeks. Hindi ko rin naman tinanong kung nasan siya o kung anong ginagawa niya. But it may sound silly, I miss him. Pero walang malisya do'n kasi kaibigan lang naman ang turing ko sa kanya, e. Nothing more.

I continued my study at naging driver ko pa si Mr. Hotdog. We became close because of his funny and jolly attitude. Kaso lang, madaldal siya. Walang preno ang bibig at napakarami pa niyang alam. Nakakatuwa siyang kasama.

Darlene also continued her schooling. Dahil sa mga priorities namin, hindi na kami masyadong nagkakausap.

Months have passed. February no more. Ipinagpatuloy ko pa rin ang pag-aaral ko. Me and Danica became close friends.