Touch of real victory

Empty fountains with a promise of fulfillment

She knew that this moment would't last. She knew it when he stared at her as if he'd never see her again, as if this was their first and last encounter. He seemed like he was already resigned, but she wouldn't just give up on this friendship at least not now when it just started and it could turn into something truly beautiful. She wouldn't let him go not before trying, because how can Peter know that long - distance relationship are set to fail if he never tried.

Then there were his kisses again. While he was never short on passion with Cindy, there was a new raw edge to the way his lips moved against hers now. He grabbed her out of nowhere and pulled into his arms. Not that she was complaining, but while her heart raced and her blood pulsed hot under her skin when Peter kissed her, it ran ice cold when they pulled apart and she saw that same fierce and hungry of touch expression in his eyes.

" I don't think that I can just leave you behind and go back to the same old life I lived before meeting you" Peter finally broke in between their kisses.

She pulled out of his arms and took couple of steps back so that she could see him and his expressions fully.

" Then don't" - she replied while pinching her eyes onto his face.

Still, she was still by his side assuring that everything could be fine, and he was beginning to worry that it was him, not her. That maybe he was just so broken that he couldn't accept that things could be just fine.Maybe he has grown too used to heartbrakes and dissappoitments, so in result he was now determined to find flaws where there were none. Since age 5 he was taught that all a person needs to be happy is success and great results. Eversince he became a ski jumper, he payed his full attention to trainings. He hardly ever had a day where he would just lie in bed all day or go to the party where he would get completly drunk. There was none of that in Peter's childhood and teen life. He didn't even remember how it felt to wake up after 9am.

But maybe it was all in his head and all he had to do was push trough the false ideas that he picked up somwhere on the way of becoming a sport champion.

He was trying tho. He ignored what his mind perceived to be warning sings, even when every atom in his body was screaming at him not to.

" And then what? I will be in a new country every week... "

"So what! Peter there's skype, there's facebook, there's face time... I'm finishing my last semester in march, so I will join you for the last competition" - she took his hand into her palm and started playing with his lean cold fingers.

" But promise me one thing" - he said.

" What?" - she smiled because she knew it's a win-win situation

" Promise me that you will wait for me"

" I promise, I promise "

Three weeks after

As the next days passed, Peter couldn't bare the fact that he will be away from his love for the next month before they'll see eachother. He was waiting for a training for a mix competition in Falun but he already knew he had no chances in accomplishing a good position, as he could not put his mind straight into whatever worked for him before. He was a totally different person and not everyone seemed to like the way he started acting after Austria. Instead of preparing he checked his email twice each hour but there was still no emails from Cindy.

He and Jurij were way to the slovenian training room to train some more on their telemark landing.

" So, do you still talk with C?"

" I wrote to her some emails but she haven't responded on any..."

" You joking?"

" I told her it was a stupid idea but she insisted on keeping in touch, she even promised me she will do everything in her power to stay in contact... We talked first week after Austria but then she said she was busy with studying and stuff and I haven't received anything from her yet" - Peter had a blank expression on his face so Jurij already knew it's something that has been bothering him for so long that he decided to keep it all inside and pretend it doesen't have any effect on him.