𝙄𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚? - 𝙧. 𝙨𝙪𝙣𝙖

¡ thirty

"I don't wanna talk Suna, I'm tired of your excuses"

You were pissed. Every time something came up, it was because of him and his ex. You wanted to know the truth, but you were sick and tired of all of this.

"Please just let me explain" he brought his hand slowly up to caress your cheek but you pushed it away and backed up from him a bit to create a space between you two.

For a split second you were thinking about if you should let him explain.

Why didn't he tell me before then? I told him everything

You were about to close the door on him.

But what if he had a valid reason to act like this?

Ugh just fuck it.

You stepped aside for him to come inside, "just.. be quiet I don't want my mum to hear".

The both of you quietly went into your room. Suna never saw your room in person, only when you two were on a video call. He was looking around seeing the pictures of Michi and you on your wall. He smiled a bit and thought that it was adorable.

As you were sitting on your bed, a framed picture on your desk caught his attention.

"Is this your dad?" He bluntly asked, knowing about what happened with your dad already.

You were shaking your leg because you were nervous and finally wanted to hear an explanation from him so you just decided to ignore his question.

"What did you want to talk about?" You said staring at the picture of you and your dad.

"Can I sit?" He asked pointing to the spot next to you on your bed, you just responded by nodding.

"(N/n), I-"

"Don't.. call me that" you quickly interrupted him.

"(Y/n).. fuck i don't know how to explain this" he was fidgeting with his fingers, obviously being nervous too.

"Look, I don't like Desiree anymore." He was looking at you, but you still were looking away waiting for him to continue. "She.. just knows her ways into getting what she wants."

You looked up at him, being more confused than you were before, "What do you mean?".

Suna sighed, "I didn't want to tell you at first because I didn't want to ruin this, I didn't know how you would react." He stopped for a second. "She saw the photo and videos, obviously. She contacted me again and threatened to.. publish something that would hurt you if I wouldn't get back into contact with her and still kept contact with you."

Publish??

Wait she couldn't know about this, right?

How would she know anything about me?

"That doesn't make any sense Suna" you almost laughed, shaking your head,  thinking it was just another excuse and wanting to deny the fact she knew things about your past.

"I really didn't wanna do this (y/n)" he pulled out his phone and was searching something in a chat.

He showed you several pictures of you being almost blacked out drunk and probably even drugged, doing stuff you regret till today, not to mention the lack of clothes you were wearing.

—

You couldn't remember anything that happened that night. You were just out with Tsukishima that day and some of the guys from your area. You didn't even want to go, but he still found a way to convince you and bring you with him.

Even though alcohol was involved, you don't recall drinking that much. On the other hand you can't really remember much, the last thing you knew was someone taking you to a bedroom.

These photos weren't public, some people have seen them but almost everyone at your old school knew about it.

You didn't know if Tsuki was involved, you just knew he didn't do anything to stop it and to stop the people talking about it.

It was enough for you to move places, you didn't have anything that kept you there, that place held too many memories that just hurt you.

Till this day you were hoping that it would all be left behind and that no one in your new prefecture would know about it, to start off new without anyone knowing anything about your past.

 Guess it was too late for all that.

—

"Oh" was the only thing you let out, you were a bit in shock not really knowing how to react, constantly bumping your leg up and down.

You never saw these pictures, you only knew that they existed, you didn't know they were that bad and revealing.

After opening your mouth for a split second you closed it again, you wanted to say something but no words came out.

Suna saw the look on your face, he knew it would probably bring some bad memories back, but he didn't expect it to turn out like this, he thought you already knew what they looked like.

"I'm.. sorry, I'm guessing you never saw them" he said wanting to punch himself for his stupidness.

Again, you chose to ignore what he said, finally being able to say something, "How many-" you closed your eyes and taking a deep breath, "does anyone else know?".

"I don't think so" he reassured, "She sent me these to prove that she had something against you".

You were a bit relieved but still embarrassed by the fact that these pictures still exist.

"She made me stay with her, (y/n) I..".

A single tear fell down from your face, you didn't know why, you weren't sad.

What is happening

Suna was looking at you, his heart breaking seeing you like this. This time he knew it was going to hurt you, but it was the truth and you deserved to know every little bit of it. He knew more of your past than you know of. Your manipulative ex, the pictures, the accident, your dad and all of the other reasons why you moved.

"I don't wanna be with her god damn, but I don't want her to publish those photos either, I don't want to hurt you anymore, but I don't know what to do, fuck" he paused for a bit.

"I love you (y/n)"

These were those three words he wanted to tell you all along. But he didn't know how or when the right moment is. It probably wasn't the right moment right now, but he needed to get that out before anything else happened, you needed to know that he loved you.

You looked up at him, "really?"

He laughed a bit, "yes silly, I want to be with you, and only you."

As he said that you pulled him into a kiss, you basically grabbed his face with both of your hands on each side of his cheek. He put his hand on your waist as he pulled you close.

A small peck turned into a passionate kiss. Suna soon found himself pulling you even closer, deepening the kiss as you wrapped your hands around his neck, your fingers intertwining with his soft brown hair. He guided your legs to straddle him on the bed so now you were on top of him.

You pulled away for a second and looked him in the eyes, "I love you too, dummy".

He quickly turned you around so now you were laying on the bed with him straddling you. He managed to turn you around that quick you had to giggle a bit. You were surprised at your own mood changing that quickly, but for you it was just too hard to be in a negative mood around Suna, especially after he just confessed to you.

You didn't care about anything, not that he knew about everything of your past or even the pictures, you knew that Suna loved you. That was enough for you to be happy for once again, at least at that moment.