Finally finding the One..

Part 4: ward rounds and flashback

As unnie left and i was left back alone on my bed,i did try to still call SANA and wondered where the hell she could be at this hour?and then suddenly the devil finally came..
Sana came to my apartment and she doesnt look like her usual self,her clothes are bit messy as well as her hair that it seems to me was suddenly fix..I let sana inside my room and hear her out for justification..but at the back of my mind im already doubting her but at the end of it im still trying to see the positivity of this relationship we have.."sorry babe,i was caught up with school,and i didnt answer your calls,my phone's dead but i have known from nayeon unnie that your sick? How are you now? You feel better?" As she was nearing me and try to peck me at my cheeks,I allowed her but as she kiss my cheeks i did smell that her perfume is different,sana never uses a lavender scent..and i thought to myself,did we really falls apart that i didnt know now what perfume she is on?? " since when did you change your perfume sana? I thought..you hated lavender,,and yeah i was sick and running a fever and still am,thanks to nayeon unnie for taking care of me or else i dont know what happened to me..as I have been calling you as you may know now but your phones dead" I said to her with a hurt tone in my voice as i was not looking to her anymore as my mind is clouded on my thoughts and assumptions that i wish were not true..Sana surprised with my answer and her reaction was not I am expecting it to be.."so i cant change perfume now mina? Since when did you care about the change of my scent? What are you trying to insinuate? And i told you i was busy at school but here i am now am i??"- sana
"Then why the hell are you mad all of a sudden sana? Gosh! Im just asking since you hated lavender afterall!😡 and yeah i always care about everything about you but because your too busy to notice it!..when did we even have a proper conversation sana? Everytime i call you,your busy but i do understand that,but this? Im already sick and not feeling well and here you are argue with me? I cant fucking believe this"- mina
"Tsk! You know what..this conversation is pointless,i will go home,i should have not come here in the first place when i should know this would happen! Take care of yourself..and by the way i love lavender now for your information"- sana
And with that she left without goodbye,i was so surprised with the sudden burst of anger,but i was hurt too..tell all the expectations but on my heart i think,i deserve to be love too by her as she is what i know my still my girlfriend,I did try to understand her in all the times she wouldnt see me or called me or answer my messages,but this? I've lost it..and im sorry for not having the patience to understand her but what she did too is not right.And when did she started to love the lavender scent??? Since when??? ...
I went back to bed after sana left and called nayeon unnie and explained everything to her,i cried again my heart out to nayeon unnie..i was so hurt and doubted myself on what kind of girlfriend I am? Is it my fault sana is drifting away from me? When all i do is try to be there for her always?..nayeon unnie just heard me out and comforted me as always she would do to make me calm,and thanks to her i was able to sleep back with tears still in my eyes.

Days back after the fight Me and Sana had,she and I never had the chance to sort things out between the two us,as graduation is slowly nearing,i did try to see sana and everytime i would see her she wojld just shrugged it off and tell me she is busy and this is not the right time.I patiently waited for sana and my doubts to myself and to what kind of girlfriend i am was starting to eat me up.Then one day,as I walking up to sana's apartment to fix our relationship,I was surprised to see the most unexpected things that will break my heart forever..as i was walking,and entered her door to her room,as i have an extra key she gave me,I noticed an extra pair of shoes that's not Sana's and as i neared her room..i heard muffling sounds of moans and noises,i feared what I heard and my heart beats tripple its beat than normal and i feel my eyes tearing,I slowly open the door....and there I saw my Sana..the love of my life..making out with another girl,a girl i never knew who it was and i wasnt planning to know,..I felt my heart was about to explode with anger! With hatred! As to why this has to happen with us!,tears wont stop pouring down my eyes as i was about to close the door..sana..saw me.."mina......" I heard her but I ran as fast i could and not turn back despite her calls,I heard nothing but my cries and my heart that is broken and shattered.."why sana!!! Why!!!!!!!" I hear myself shouting as i was running and ended up to Nayeon Unnies apartment.Unnie open up her door for me and immediately hug me and ushered me in her room,we stayed like that for God knows why and that is the first time Nayeon Unnie has not said anything back,instead comfort me and hug me until i drifted to sleep...

The morning after of the incident,i woke with a heavy heart,I felt Nayeon unnie beside me as she started to wake up to.."penguin,i love you..come lets eat together.." she said to me and peck at my cheeks,she washed up and prepared breakfast for us and help me out.I,on the otherhand still was so upset and tears starts to fall my eyes,still broken,and i said" unnie..i saw her..kissing another girl😭🥺🥺🥺 she cheated on me unnie,how could she do that to me!!!!!!" I cried out loud to nayeon unnie and unnie immediately came to me and hug me back.."minachan,..i know what ever i say will not take away all the hurt your feeling,but please know that your strong and im here for you no matter what minachan..my favorite dongsaeng"

After everything has happened,Graduation happened,and i decided to be on hiatus for a while to heal myself.Sana did not stop to bother me and explained her side but i refused to listen as for me there was no explanation needed as she broke me to pieces.All my dreams of a happy relationship with a girl was shattered and i promised myself not to fall inlove anymore.I focus on me being a doctor and pursue my studies about it,being my father is a famous orthopedic surgeon that i should live up to.As i was building myself,there my walls of trusting people also built its way up,I find it hard to trust anyone anymore except for Nayeon unnie and my parents,it is hard but i have to be,to guard my heart and not to be broken again.Nayeon unnie has always stayed by my side,contantly reminding me that not everyone is like Sana,.sometimes i think i should have love nayeon unnie instead hahahaha..but no,afterall nayeon unnie loves me as her sister and will always be...
---end of flashback----

Present time:
As the emotions of my broken first love came to me during the ward rounds I was about to start,a tear silently fell on my eyes and I forget that I was with Chaeyong...chaeyong the one who started this drum rolls beats in my heart and the butterflies in my stomach as well as the emotions of being broken and possibly love??? Aish!!!!!
I heard chaeyong spoke and look me in the eye as she wipe my tears and hold my hands.."doc mina,are you okay?? Hey why are you crying? Did i upset you? Please dont cry im sorry doc mina" i heard she spoke to me..i was so suprised and overwhelmed with the sudden sweetness and at the same time i got so ashamed for letting her feel she upsets me and did something wrong which is obviously not the case..stupid mina think!!!!🙂
I got so nervous as she is still holding my hands and directly looking at me,..i was again mesmerized with her eyes and i said " im sorry chaeyong,no no its not your fault,i just remembered somthing,sorry for causing any trouble..please forgive me😊" and she said and flushed me with her angelic smile that could kill me anytime soon.."aish..good to know doc mina,i thought i upset you or anything,but good to know your okay hehehe,c'mon doc lets see your patients,i will be with you all the way😊😊😊"
And just like that,with what she said..i was captivated again,we proceeded with the morning rounds and during that time, i can smell chaeyong smells very nice,strawberry scent which i trully love,it captures my heart..and I did see how caring and passionate chaeyong is with children,how she caress them with her loving touch,how she smiles with them and playfully plays with them,how she talks and explains with the parents,and how she is a wonderful nurse and collegues..gosh chaeyong is gonna be a perfect mother! Wow! What is my description??? Why did i describe chaeyong like that?😊 is this pure admiration or i was love at first sight by the midget..oh dear heart..
And with that,chaeyong and I finish the ward rounds smoothly and was able to discuss all my plans to the children..chaeyong attentively wrote down everything.She really looked amazing!..but the conversation had to be cut as Nayeon unnie called me for updates in her office and so I did temporarily said my goodbye to chaeyong and thanked her for the morning..chaeyong replied "its my pleaseure doc mina,and just come around the station if yor free,you are very most welcome here😊 see you around doctor mina😊" and so she again flashed me with her smile with her cute dimples and shakes my hand as i touch back her soft and smooth hands that i wish everyday to hold to,and take my leave with a smile on my face for the first time for so long...