Forbidden Addiction (Aaron HotchnerxReader) (ON HOLD)

Chapter 2

Tw: mentions of abuse, and thoughts of self harming/suicide

"Are you sure hotch?" You ask him for about the 20th time. It's not that you didn't want to go undercover as his wife because oh boy you did. " yes y/n it is unless you want others to die. We will be going undercover as the Gibsons." "Yes sir" you replied dryly and turned towards the door leaving in just enough time to hear him sigh and answer his ringing phone. "Haley you know I have to wo- no you don't get to do that" you gulped and continued to trudge towards your desk.

15 minutes later
You were finishing up when your phone started ringing. "Oh no" you whispered to yourself. It was your controlling and possessive fiancé Ethan. A tear rolled down your cheek but you wiped it before anyone could see it. "Hello" you said into the phone " where are you" he yelled, with his teeth gritted "I'm at work, Ethan" you said emphasizing his name. " don't make me punish you when you get home you fucking bitch." He threatened. A sudden wave of panic rushed over you. " I have to go Ethan" you said quickly ending the call. You stood up quickly and dashed for the bathroom. You were having a panic attack. "Breath y/n breath" you could hear Emily saying. It was faint but it got you to calm down. She looked worried " y/n are you ok" you nodded but she knew something was up. " y/n I barely know you so I'm not going to push, but you can trust me if you ever want to talk." You hugged her " thank you Emily" you walked over to the mirror and fixed your droopy makeup.

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1week later.
"Omg hotch, I found a lead" yelled Penelope. " what Garcia" Hotch questioned "all couples went to this royal masquerade ball the weekend before they were murdered, there's actually one taking place next weekend." Garcia said all in one breath. " it's settled then Hotch and y/n go to that one as the Gibson's, Thomas 36 and Marionette 28." Rossi quickly answered. " ok that's fine but where is y/n" Hotch questioned. "Oh no" prentiss whispered to herself and ran out of the room. Emily quickly rushed to her desk and called your phone, straight to voicemail. "Garcia track her phone tell me where she is right now" Emily yelled in panic having a idea of what you were doing. " uhh she's at Home Depot em" "no damnit I was right" she yelled running out.
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Y/n POV
" That will be $15.78" the cashier said. I quickly paid and got back in my car. I drove to my apartment knowing Ethan wouldn't be home at this time. Tears were streaming down your face. You couldn't handle life with Ethan anymore. You knew if you ran he would follow. You thought of your last option. Suicide. "When the case is over I'll do it" you whispered to yourself. You put the blades you just bought under your seat and drove back to work.

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Hotch POV
"Emily wait!" I yelled after her.
"What is happening"
"She's gonna kill herself hotch" Emily said. Hotches  eyes grew wide. "What Emily how do you know"
He questioned. "Hotch I thought you were a profiler, first of all her behavior. When someone raises their arm around her she flinches, obviously abused. Last week she had a panic attack after being on the call with someone named Ethan, which I'm assuming Is her abuser and she's stuck dating him." Emily said Hotch was surprised "oh my god how did I not realize this"

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Y/N POV
I pull into the parking garage and see Emily and Hotch. They seem to be arguing. "Y/n!" Emily yells while running to capture me in a hug. Emily was my best friend I've told her everything except for my Ethan issue. " wow Emily what's wrong"
"Please don't do it y/n" "Emily I- I'm sorry" you say on the verge of tears.
"Y/n may I speak with you in my office, please" Hotch said more cal than usual.

-_-_-_- in his office-_-_
You knocked on the door. "Come in" he said in his husk voice "you wanted to speak with me sir" you said while sitting on the couch in his office. "Y/n we are going undercover this weekend are you up for it" he asked generally worried for you. " yes sir I a. I can not let my personal issues get in the way of work." You replied dryly. "Ok then we will be going to a masquerade ball on Saturday. Your wardrobe will be assessed to you."
"Ok sir see you then" you were about to leave when Hotch said. " y/n you do realize this case can go on for longer than expected and we will have to do couple things like... you know kissing holding hands and- dates." "Yes sir I know" you said and walked out. You appeared calm but your thoughts were not  'omg omg omg I'm going to have to be his "wife" omg I might have to kiss him' was all you could think.

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There's chapter 2!!!! What's gonna happen with y/n??? Will she do it or will Emily and hotch convince her not to. Ty for reading.