Winding Roads (BWWM)

Chapter Nine

Brielle~ May

"Hold on, babes" Genevieve holds up one finger to me, Persia and Maya. I called them over for a brunch in at my apartment. I needed some serious girl time to figure out my head and my heart. Having sex with Daxton is never just sex with Daxton. There really is a difference between sex, and making love. The only one I have solid evidence on is the latter. Daxton is dominant in the bedroom, which I love, but he's always super intense and sensual. He makes love to me. When the girls came over I had to explain everything to them, we had Lina on FaceTime. Only Lina and Genevieve knew about my losing my virginity to Daxton.

"Okay. We thought that you might've but when you two broke up you said you were still a virgin" Maya reiterated, being the interrogative type, she is. I nodded and continued to tell them about the events of the night before and super early in the morning. Like before the birds rose to get the worm. Persia, needing to psychoanalyze when her friends are in crisis, had asked some pretty personal questions. I think she also just wanted me to spill the tea, they all did. Back in high school, Daxton was infamous for the whispers about how he was in bed. It all started with his first girlfriend, a senior on the girls' soccer team. They both ran with the popular crowd and the upper classmen guys loved Daxton. Long story short, it gave him a lot of perks.

They wanted to know if he was vocal at all. He's not vocal at all in bed, which I thought was odd the first time we ever had sex. Apparently, it's common for men to be either vocal or non-vocal according to Perrie. Whether or not he was dominant; which I told them yes but not like in the Chrisitan Grey sort of way. Dax is just a man's man; super masculine and I like it. They asked about positions. To which I said, "I'm a big fan of positions where I'm more submissive."

"Boring!" Gen exclaimed.

"Hey! Say whatever you want, but missionary is my favorite. My absolute fav! Doggy is a close second but I like to see his face" I defend myself. Dax is a hand-holding, soul-searching-eye contact kind of lover. It was too intense for me at first, but after the third time we had sex—all within hours of the very first time—I guess I got used to it.

"What?! From virgin to sex three times and morning sex all in the same day. Or rather, less than even six hours" Maya yelled in shock, rubbing her pregnant belly. "I'm exhausted just saying all that."

"Is that not normal?" I grimaced.

"Well, it's not, not normal" Persia offered.

"Yeah, okay, well...it's always intense and I cry because I feel so much. It's like always slow, deep strokes, and he kisses me and holds me a lot. I'm not complaining, in fact I do the total opposite of complain. The thing is I always cry. I think it freaks him out because he just left this morning. Not to mention the first time was after we broke up." I explained.

"So, you associate passionate sex with loss? Like a goodbye?" Persia said matter-of-factly while munching on a chocolate covered strawberry.

"UGH!" I screamed into a pillow and fell back on my enormous couch.

"We told you that hon," Catalina's voice came in from the phone.

"Yeah, Sweetie, even I told you not to jump back in the sack with him before you talk to him about it. About everything" Genevieve added with a mouth full of buttered croissants. It was awful! Even Gen had an answer, and a good one at that. She's the most sex crazed, horn dog I know. Had she evolved pass me?

"Am I allowing my reliance on him to hinder my growth? Should I just call it quits before we have the talk? I'm not even sure if he wants to be with me, he left before I even woke up" I frantically questioned them.

"Oh no, you're doing it again! Brielle, this is the same thing you did before graduation. You automatically associate your relationship with him as some sort of growth stunt. Everyone can see you two are better together!" Maya snapped.