𝙘𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙤𝙡𝙞𝙪𝙢

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"Of all the painful ways to die, the worst is falling in love with someone who'd never love you back."

-Anjum Choudhary

Hongjoong had always found Seonghwa enchanting, from their first meeting back when they were freshman in high school. He still vividly remembers even up to now when the boy he sat next to turned to look at him, how the light from the window hit his black hair and how he smiled and introduced himself as Seonghwa.

Hongjoong and him became friends easily, they had compatible personalities, bonding over their love for music and performing.

At first, Hongjoong looked up to him, found the way he carries himself to be interesting, how despite his cold facade he was the sweetest person he has ever met.

With time that small admiration began to grow, before Hongjoong could even realize what was happening he found himself smiling even at just the thought of the black-haired male, longing to be around him, seeing the world with a bit more color when Seonghwa was around.

Seonghwa with his beautiful smile and pretty eyes.

Seonghwa whose hugs feel like being engulfed by the sun.

Seonghwa has been the center of his universe for as long as he can remember.

A man who has brought Hongjoong so much joy, who has been there with him in the happiest days of his life and the hardest.

Someone who is Hongjoong shoulder to cry on and his biggest cheerleader.

Who has the power to break Hongjoong into a million little pieces and put him back together with a simple smile and a "Joongie I missed you!".

Seonghwa the man who never leaves his mind.

Seonghwa who Hongjoong is madly and hopelessly in love with.

Seonghwa, the one who is currently breaking his heart yet again.

"Joongie, meet Seungsik my boyfriend." the love of his life claimed, with a bright smile.

Hongjoong world seemed to stop, he started at the attractive man next to his impossible love, who was smiling at him.

Swallowing the knot in his throat, he let out what he hopes is a convincing smile.

"Hi, nice to meet you."

"Nice to meet you too! Seongie talks a lot about you."

Seongie

Hongjoong could feel his heart cracking a little by the endearment Seungsik had called his Seonghwa.

Stupid Joong, Seonghwa is not yours, never has been never will be, not by how he is looking at Seungsik as if he puts the stars in the sky.

"Joong let's go eat all of us, I want you and Seungsik to get to know each other, you're on your break right?"

Hongjoong has never wanted to cry as badly as he wants to cry right now.

Pathetic

Too focused on holding back tears, he is about to mumble a dumb excuse to tell them to go ahead when he hears someone calling for him.

"Hongjoong!" a voice calls, whoever that is Hongjoong wants to kiss them, they have just saved him.

He feels an arm wrap around his shoulders, "Sorry Seonghwa, Joongie has plans with me today," Yunho said with a charming grin, turning to phase Hogjoong, "you promised to buy me food today remember? You better not try to get out of our deal."