when the fat girl gets skinny: part one
the year of skinny pop and sugar-free jello cups we guzzled vitamin water and vodka toasting to high school and survival .complementing each other's thigh gaps . trying diets that we found on the internet. menthol cigarettes. eating a front of a mirror . donating blood. replacing meals with other practical hobbies like making flower crowns and fainting. wondering why i haven't had my periods in months or why breakfast is like giving up or how many more productive ways i could have spent my time today besides googling the calories in the glue of a u.s. envelope. watching america's next top model like the gospel. hunching naked over a bathroom scale shrine. crying into an empty bowl of coco puffs because i only feel pretty when I'm hungry.
if you arent recovering you are dying. by the time I was 16 i had already experienced being clinically overweight, underweight and obese. as a child fat was a first word people use to describe me which didnt offend me until i found out it was supposed to.
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sun dried depression & other magic tricks | poetry
Poetryi mean you can literally saw a woman in half and itll still be considered a magic trick right? start: saturday october 3, 2020 then unpublished♥ lol republished : wed sept 22. 2021
