greenlight -- afi story♡

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tw: mention of rape

I awoke with something really warm pressed against my back, i tried to turn and look, only to find myself locked in ashton's arms.

he was spooning me, with his chin resting on my shoulder.

I wriggled around, trying to face him, which earned a deep groan from him. a noise that would make anyone get all hot and bothered.

I kept trying to twist around.

"babyyyy." he whined, dragging the y. the pet name made me blush, but also made me realise he thought I was someone else. I definitely shouldnt be cuddling with him if he was dating someone else.

I pulled away, removing his arms from around my waist. this woke him up fully.

before he could say anything, I was already out of the bed and on the balcony again. he came up behind me and placed his head on my shoulder, causing me to turn.

"what are you doing?" I questioned.

he looked shocked; "what do you mean?"

"cuddling me when you dont like me and you're with someone else." I accused.

"I'm not with anyone else?" he looked very confused, and tired.

"you called me baby, and it wasnt meant for me." I said, feeling a little pathetic.

"I'm sorry, I was tired. but there is no one else. and why do you seem to think i don't like you?" he said, intrigued and more awake than before. he was genuinely curious as to how I could think that.

"well, at the meet and greet, you looked upset. and then yesterday, you looked upset while we were watching the film. and it seem like whenever I'm around you're just--"

I was cut off by the feeling of lips on mine. they were soft and moulded with mine almost perfectly. before I could react, they were gone.

my lips parted in shock, and I looked at ashton with wide eyes. a sight that made him groan once again.

"stop that look or I'll be doing a lot more than kissing you." he said sternly, causing my my mouth to clamp shut and my cheeks to get warm.

"you, you just kissed me." I said, completely dumbfounded. he just nodded in response and smiled.

"I do like you, silly girl. I just get a little upset when you're around calum, i thought we knew that by now." he replied. as I was processing what he thought, he just started at me. "did you not want me to?" he questioned, a pained expression on his face.

when I said nothing, he muttered an okay and then started to walk away. before he could get to the bed, I was in front of him.

i grabbed his chin and brought his face down to mine, kissing him once again.

this time, this kiss lasted a lot longer. both of us hungry for the other. i pulled back to catch my breath, but ashton just kept kissing down my neck.

he finally reached my collarbone, which made me whine. after that, he looked up to me with a smirk, kissing that place again. sucking slightly, making me moan involuntarily.

before he could do anymore, I kissed him again. running my fingers through his hair, his hands were on my waist, inching towards my ass slowly.

he didn't get there, as I pulled away, he looked flustered. it was hot.

but i knew i couldnt do this, not yet, not in this situation.

"I'm sorry-- I cant, you know. yeah." I said, making little sense.

thankfully, he understood; "that's okay sweetheart, I promise."

"I just, I've never done it before." I said, feeling painfully awkward.

"it? you mean sex? wait, you're a virgin?" his words tumbled out, and I giggled at his surprise.

"well, yeah, kinda." I replied.

"kinda?"

"yeah, I dont want to talk about it right now, but yeah, I'm a virgin." I said, panicking slightly.

"okay, but can we get back into bed, it's cold." he asked and I looked at him properly for the first time this morning. he was only wearing his boxers, they were hung low, showing his v line. honestly, I'm not surprised he was cold, practically naked with the window open.

I just laughed and nodded, climbing back into the bed. he watched me, groaning yet again.

he switched on the tv and looked at me. I moved closer to him, so he could put his arm around my shoulders. he seemed happy enough, so I got my phone out to see notifications from bella, my brother and an unknown number.

bella smella: your mom called asking if you were at mine, but where are you?
bella smella: are you still with calum?
josie wosie: I had to stay over, it was too dark to walk
bella smella: and they couldnt buy a taxi home for you? they're literally celebrities
josie wosie: I didnt think of that
josie wosie: oh, and I'm actually with ashton

loser: where tf are you? I know you're not at bella's
jo: it doesnt matter where I am. I'm okay. pls dont tell mom

unknown number: I saw you today, going into that room with that boy. were you a little tease with him, or did you let him have it nice and easy

as soon as I read the message, I felt sick to my stomach. I knew who it was, and now that I think back to yesterday, he did look familiar. I was too afraid to really register anything, but now the fear came back, literally doubled.

he was following me now, as if hurting me once wasnt enough.

josie: calummmm
josie: calum
josie: are you awake?
cal pal: no, leave me alone
josie: I need to talk to you, like right now

cal pal is calling...

I smiled at ashton, showing him the phone. he nodded, letting go of me so I could get out of the bed. I ran to the bathroom and picked up.

"what's wrong?" were the first words out of his mouth. he sounded sleepy, and any other time, I would've gushed over his morning voice.

"do you remember that guy yesterday? the one that was following me? well, I know who it was." I rushed out.

he took a second to respond; "who was it?"

"he raped me last year." I said.

calum was completely silent.

"what if he does it again, why was he following me, he has my number too. how does he have my number?" I was spiralling and calum could tell.

he told me to take deep breaths and to count to 20. once I reached 17, there was a banging on the door. ashton must have opened it, bc by the time I was at 20, I could hear calum's voice on the other side of the bathroom door.

I opened it for him and I was shaking. he just picked me up and held me. whispering in my ear that I was okay, that I was safe with him. my breathing started to slow.

I put my arms around him and hugged him back, letting him know I was calmer now. he pulled back and looked at me. I was probably a mess, tear stained cheeks, puffy eyes, chapped lips.

he just kissed the top of my head and pulled me in to hug me again.

"it will all be okay, I promise baby girl." he whispered.

(a/n) well, that was an emotional chapter. I'm sorry about that :(