everything we never had

vi - nate

I walk into the cafeteria and look around. The place is disgusting. Our school is disgusting. All of the stereotypical cliques - the jocks, nerds, cheerleaders, goths, stoners. I don't really have any good friends. And I'm fine with that, I like being alone. 

I don't get lunch from school today. All I have is an apple. I walk around trying to get through the large crowd of people and out of the dirty cafeteria and into the courtyard. Suddenly I spot Angel. She is sitting at her usual table with all of the cheerleaders. Dang she looks good. She's wearing her cheerleader outfit and a high ponytail with a purple ribbon tied around it. However she doesn't look like herself - not that I've ever paid that much attention to her. She looks sad and worried. I can tell that she's not really listening to the conversations going on at the table. I pick up the pace and hurriedly get out of there. I get that I like just saw our parents making out but I can't stop thinking about her. I try to think about something else. Ah yes - how much I hate this place. In a couple of weeks I'll be on summer holidays and I won't be forced to come here everyday. Not that I even go to school very often but still. I walk over to a bench where a bunch of freshman are sitting.

"Move" I say at them fiercely.

They obey and then hurriedly pack up their things and run away from the bench with a slightly scared look on their faces. I sit down grumpily. I don't know why but seeing my dad with Angel's mum was so weird. I've seen him with so many women, even some people's moms from this school, I'm so used to it by now, but it was still weird.

I take a bite into my apple and look around the courtyard. Everyone looks happy - well most people. I hate high school. Like I said, I don't really have friends. I mean, sometimes I hang with the stoners, but usually thats just so I can get free weed, apart from that they're really annoying. Other times I hang out with the goths, but sometimes they're too depressing - even for me. 

I look around again and see two people making out behind a tree. It's obvious they think they are hiding and that no one can see them but they are practically in plain sight. 

I've never been in a real relationship before. Or any kind of relationship for that that matter. I don't do girlfriends. I've had so many girls that I've hooked up with like once then thinking that we were dating. Then they go and tell all of their friends about how we are 'dating'. Then I have to make it clear to them that we are not. It's honestly so annoying being irresistibly hot sometimes. Suddenly I start to wonder what it would be like to date Angel. No warning at all, the thought just pops into my head. I try hard once again to stop thinking about her. I go back to looking around the courtyard, then I see her and her friends through the window that looks into the cafeteria get up and leave. She looks a bit happier then she did earlier, but still not how she normally looks. I notice that Melody is walking right next to her. I've never realised this before but seeing them standing right next to each other, Angel is like way hotter. I then see Brandon - her ex walk out of the cafeteria. I get the sudden urge to beat him up. He broke her heart, poor, sweet, innocent Angel's heart. 

"AAAHHHH" I shout, annoyed as I bang my fist on the table. Everyone looks at me weirdly. "WHAT?!" I shout again, and everyone looks away quickly.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!? WHY CAN'T I STOP THINKING OF ANGEL!? I don't shout that bit out.