It's legal////Billie Eilish

13: let me change

I walk in as the music blasts and the lights shine brightly. A murmur of voices blending in with the music. I sigh taking a seat at the bar. I had been in the lockers for the past hour thinking and decided to come out. My dance doesn't start till 11 and it was only 10.

"Hey mama." I look over to a tall man, bright blue eyes. "What's up." I ask him. "You do privates yeah?" I nod at his question. "You mind doing one for my buddy over there. It's his birthday and we want him to get some pussy." He says laughing. "It's dancing not fucking but sure. Room 3." I tell him walking off.

A few minutes later a young man walked in. He seemed pretty nervous. "Come sit." I tell him patting the cushioned bench. "I um. Sorry. But I'm gay i don't really like this stuff." He whispers out and I laugh. "Oh no worries I'm gay too. So long as your buddies are paying we don't have to do anything but talk." I say and he smiles getting comfortable.

After 3 other private sessions and my stage dance i was drained. I groan as I sit on the lounge chair in the break room. "You did great out there." I look over and smile. "Eden! What are you doing back here?" I ask confused. "My brother owns the club. Jack?" My eyes widen, "No way! You and jackey are siblings." I laugh as they looked nothing alike. She was domineering and confident while he was always nervous and soft spoken.

"Very rude y/n." I snort as jack walks in arms crossed proving my point. "You should go home. It's late." He said worried and I smile at him. "Yeah don't worry I'm leaving in a bit." He nods walking out not before glaring at his sister.

"I'll take you home." Eden says and I nod grabbing my things. We made our way out of the noisy club and into her car. "What do you do for a living?" I ask, a question that has been burning inside me for a while. She seemed pretty well off by the looks of it. But i don't think I've ever heard her speak of what she does. "You could say something like a business." She responds.

Her answer had an edge to it as if it weren't entirely true. "I'll leave you here. I have things i need to do." She says waving bye and driving off.

I walk into my apartment and freeze as I see a figure on the couch. "Get out or I'll call the cops." I spit at her tossing my keys on the counter. Her body wracks with her sobs and I look over confused. She's crying? It wasn't often i see Billie cry so I knew it was serious. Despite hating her i walk over and hold her hands.

"What's wrong? Did someone hurt you?" I ask and she cries harder. "I love you! I love you so much y/n." I go to pull my hands away but she grips them. "No. Please. I mean it. Let me explain. I love you more than anyone. I never meant to hurt you. Brandon was harassing me and had dirt on me. He had a picture of us kissing and he would have posted it, ruining my career. So I wanted you to hate me instead! At least then you would still notice me!" She cries and I look at her conflicted.

How would I know she's telling me the truth? "They way you've treated me is unacceptable and I don't know if I can forgive you for it. At least not yet." I say and she looks up with her teary eyes. "Let me change. Let me change for you." I smile sadly letting her hands go. "No, change for yourself and not for me."

A/n

Heyy I'm back. Sorry been gone for a while. Im going to try and finish the book and not disappear on y'all again. Hope you guys are well! Sorry it's a short chapter but there's more to come.