Calzona - finding my way back to you

chapter 7- memories

(I'm sorry for any ptsd Im gonna cause rn-)
[the next day]
I walk into the hospital trying to control all the emotions still running through me like a stampede of zoo animals, I turn and walk to the elevators, as I get on i make eye contact with the other person on the elevator, I look away from her and look at the floor,
"Arizona.. your not even going to say hi.."
Callie says kinda sadly, I ignore her, she's with penny, I don't wanna stuff that up like I've been doing, I've been slipping recently, falling back into the past, when i promised myself I would move forwards and forget about my feelings for her. "Arizona-" she says getting annoyed I'm ignoring her. the elevator doors close and I continue to ignore her, "Arizona- seriously.." callie says clearly annoyed, she pushes the emergency stop on the elevator. she sighs. "What's wrong" she says looking at me with sad eyes putting her hands on my shoulders, I pull away, if I don't I'll be kissing her within seconds. she sighs again. "Arizona.. you can tell me.. you don't have to- but I'm here if you need- you know that-"
"I'm not your wife anymore.. you let me go.. you did this callie not me.. I was prepared to keep fighting for us.. but you let me go! so, leave. me. alone." I say with tears now running down my face, callie goes to hug me, "I said leave me alone.." I say as I push the emergency button again to make the elevators start up again, she stops the elevators. I turn around to look at her,

"Callie! you can't keep me here like I'm in prison! oh that kinda reminds me, that's basically what you said our marriage was! So why are you chasing after me! Just leave me alone!" I say shakily
"Arizona- I didn't say that.."
" oh yeah- I know but does this sound familiar? " and I finally feel free" oh what about this one? " constantly trying to fix us has been the thing that's killing me slowly" I say as a turn away from her and turn the elevators back on
"The only reason.. only reason I stopped fighting for us.. was because there was nothing left to fight for.." she says clearly upset, I turn around to face her again "yes there was.. I still loved you.. I was in love with you.. I'm still in love with you.. the only reason I stopped fighting? was because I didn't think I was enough for you.. because your perfect."
the elevator stops and the doors open, I run out the doors and into a storage room.

I stand in the storage room crying and throwing all the boxes of medical stuff all over the floor until I feel familiar arms wrap around me and stop me from throwing more, "let go.." I say softly- "I'm not going anywhere-" callie says softly back at me. "please.." I say before breaking down into tears. Callie turns me around and wraps her arms around me tightly,
I cry into her shoulder for a while.

I pull away slowly and look at her, "I'm sorry.." I say as I pull away and start picking up the medical stuff I threw everywhere. Callie pulls me back and hugs me again, "callie..." I say,
"yeah..?" callie says softly still holding onto me tightly, "a-am I still good enough.." I say out of nowhere, she stands there for a moment trying to find an answer "yes Arizona.. of course your good enough.." she says softly. I burry my head in her arms, callie pulls back. I stare at her, she moves closer to me slowly, she kisses me and tries to grab my ass, I move back against the wall,
"oh my gosh.... Arizona I'm sorry..." callie says as she looks at the floor. I don't reply I just slide down the wall to the floor and close my eyes hoping everything will go away. Callie goes to the door to leave, I stand up, grab her arm and turn her around, "Arizona..?" callie says kinda confused, I kiss her, she doesn't pull away, instead she wraps her arms around me and pulls me closer, she pulls back a bit, "arizona..." she says kinda concerned about me
"what.." I say shakily, "I love you... but I'm also.. in love with penny.." she says looking at the wall, "you have to choose.. you can't have both. but I guess I'll make things a little easier for you. you divorced me.. you let me go.. that's on you-" I say as I leave the room.