15 Reasons Not To Die || Choi Yeonjun

19; (Part 2)

y/n tapped her foot impatiently and crossed her arms in front  of her chest as she waited for a brief explanation on what just happened earlier. She watched him for a moment, upon noticing how flustered he were while looking all down in shame.  y/n finally acted the first move, because it doesn't seemed like Yeonjun will explain it to her by chance. "Who is he?"

"He's my cousin." without hesitation, Yeonjun answered.

 "Really? So that's why he's kinda handsome as well. I bet the word 'handsome' flows in your blood" y/n mumbled while pointing at her chin and looking upwards as if she was reminiscing the face of the guy who treat her in a vending machines which resembles Yeonjun's face somehow.

Yeonjun looked away once y/n said the handsome word again in front of him. Although it is already a given or probably had gone too much of him hearing the word handsome from any other to him, whenever y/n told him that, it hits differently. 

 "Anyways, you doesn't seem to be close to him. I've never seen him with you before" y/n said, as she realized that thought. Even if he's her schoolmate, never once she ever bumped into him before but today. Maybe she doesn't much care of her surroundings before not like these days.   y/n diverted her eyes up to Yeonjun when he suddenly answered, "That's because I hate him"

 "Hmm?" she asked confusedly while squinting her eyes. 

 "He's always the favorite. The number one. That makes me only the second" Yeonjun said as he heaved out a sharp breathe. When y/n shifted her eyes at him, she saw his hand balding into a fist of anger that his veins even shows.

"I see" y/n noticed that it isn't the time to ask about few follow up questions because Yeonjun might be uncomfortable with the topic, so she changed the topic by asking, "Then, why did you say that I'm your girlfriend?"

Yeonjun's face flustered as his eyes visibly shows how nervous and scared he was thinking of something to reasoned out to her, y/n noticed how edgy he was which made her hide her smile and prevent herself from further laughing at the sight of it.

"B-because... yah! I'm only protecting you against my cousin! He's a playboy--"

"What is it to you if ever he tries to hit on me?" y/n asked confusedly, eyes squinting in confusion as she asked that question not even letting the poor Yeonjunie to speak.

Yeonjun startled at the question, his body froze as his eyes looked down anxiously, because even him, doesn't know why he's acting like this. he never really imagined that he will be preventing his own cousin on doing his own things, and being so concerned about the fact that his cousin's target now is none other than y/n.

He looked down and bite his lower lip nervously, as he yelled,"Because you're my friend!!!"

y/n's body froze like a frozen meat, diverting her eyes up to meet Yeonjun's shaking eyes. To her dissatisfaction, her mouth agape wanting to say words that can cover the emotions she was feeling, but there's no word came out from her mouth but only a disappointed sigh. As the corner of her lips curved into a fake smile. "Right."

"I'll pretend to be your girlfriend then" she said while smiling widely as she can to cover up the true feelings she was hiding inside. She doesn't know why she's somehow disappointed with his answer, when in fact she should be happy that he treats her as a friend now.

Yeonjun's eyes glimmered in bliss, but he didn't made it obvious by looking away and gulping. And he hide a smile.

"I guess it's our monthsary today" y/n uttered that made Yeonjun shifted his eyes at her with his eyes squinting in confusion.

"It's been a month since I saved you from falling up there" y/n added while pointing at the 8th floor building that was across the building they are in right now.

Yeonjun looked at the direction she's pointing at, and somehow smiled at the thought of how her mind can remember even the tiniest detail of what happened that day.  "It's been a month of you continue living while waiting for those reasons not to die"

"I'm still alive..." Yeonjun mumbled while his mouth agape at amusement, on how he managed to survive a long month of despair.

He heard y/n chuckled and saw her nodding as a response from his peripheral view. So he smiled at that thought. He gazed up to the fluffy clouds in the sky as he recounted the times in which y/n gave her reasons to live, as he waited for it patiently.

"Life is exciting when we always anticipate for something every day" y/n said significantly, as Yeonjun turned his attention back to her, surprised to see that she's now turning her attention back to him as well, that they even made an eye contact.

"So make every day counts. Make yesterday your memory, make today the best day of your life, while make your tomorrow the reason to live" she said, before flashing a smile that made Yeonjun's heart pound inside his chest that how he wish he can control it so that it will stop at this moment, but unfortunately, he has no capability to stop his heart from further beating so fast, all he can do now is to let himself drown into his own emotions.

y/n noticed how much flustered he were, that made her let out a small chuckle as she added, "I guess we just have to keep on living"

"The future and tomorrow is still a mystery. And all of us wants to discover its' secrets."

As everything shatters into a soothing whirlwind, Yeonjun was amazed on how and what did it triggers her to say significant words like that that can make his heart go wild and make him realized how much there are so many reasons to keep on living. It's like she never failed to make someone feels better, and she never failed to make him smile.

His hand found its way to touch over his left chest, in where his heart located. He was so stunned on how she barely even trying anything, she's just standing there, spilling out words to mentally slap him the truth, but how come it made the biggest impact to him?

Am I falling in love?