You&I / M.E

❁59: Overthinking❁

SCARLETS POV

Currently, I'm walking on the beach boardwalk with my husband, Matthew and my little 4 year old son, Tony.

"Mommy, can we go play in the water?" Tony asks, he's struggling to pull me towards the water. I giggle and tell Matthew we'll be back soon.

"Okay. Let's go, first let's put your floaties on." I smile, walking towards our bag full of our things.

"Tony come here please!" I scoff, he's playing with a little girl would his age. He's only 4, he doesn't need to be talking to girls. Unless there from his school.

"You up yet?" A voice asks me.

I apologize to the little girl, taking my sons arm by my hand and gently hoisting him over my shoulder as he giggles.

I walk over to the bag, setting him down on his little toy story towel while I search for the sun screen and his floaties.

"Finally" I murmur, taking the floaties and sunscreen into the palm of my hands and grab them from the black bag.

"Scarlet!"

What's that noise? I decide to ignore it. I put the sunscreen onto the palm of my hands and rub it over his arms, his back and his legs. Plus a little on his face because sun burns are horrid.

"Scarlet Jen Gilinsky!"

I feel someone shaking me.

"Tony, stop it!" I whine, slapping the arm that was currently trying to wake me up.

"Whose Tony?" The same voice asks, I open my eyes and push the body that was hovering over me. They fell to the ground and I giggle.

"Not funny!" Jack says, Realization hits me as I jump out of my bed and help my brother up. He's currently wearing a navy blue v-neck shirt and khaki pants.

"Sorry." I mumble, biting my lip and looking at my bed. I want to go back to sleep- please let me.

"You were saying Tony a lot, who is that?" My brother asks me, I blush in embarrassment. Should I tell him?

"I don't remember." I shrug, shooing him out of my room. Does he know about the marriage? Is it bad I'm starting to overthink this? We're 19.

I sigh, I walk to my bed and decide to make it. I place the sheets down first, then one of the comfy blankets then the thin white blanket overtop.

I walk to my closet, what should I wear? I rummage threw my clothes and decided on some dark blue skinny jeans, a tank top and a creamy coloured cardigan.

Should I say no? What am I saying! I already said yes and I love him; and he loves me. A second later I feel sick, my head starts to spin and my stomach feels horrid.

I run to the bathroom, an towards the toilet.

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"It's okay babygirl" Matthew says, holding me tight at his chest. Gently stroking my head to make me feel semi-better but it's not working.

I just threw up, disgusting I know but I don't know why. I was perfectly fine yesterday, and this morning- not before but when Jack was in here.

"I don't get it! I was completely fine!" I scoff, I shouldn't be getting sick. The wedding- wait when is the wedding?

"When's the wedding?" I bite my lip, he shrugs and looks me straight in the eyes.

"When do you want it to be?" He asks me, When do I want it to be? It's already January and maybe a spring wedding would do us good?

"Maybe April 25th?" I suggest, he smiles and says "its perfect." (A/N that's my birthday good choice Scarlet. C;)

"When should we start planning?" I question him, he sighs and his eyes look like he's in somewhat deep thought.

"Maybe next month?" I nod, I randomly start to cry. What's up with me right now? I was perfectly fine!

"What's wrong?" Matthew asks me; looking concerned. I don't know what's wrong or I would've told you.

"Uh, I was thinking about kids." I blurt out, His eyes widen. I now fully regret saying that. Maybe he isn't ready for that talk yet? I don't want to pressure him. I mean we're 19.

"Oh really, Ms. Gilinsky?" He smirks, I giggle and slightly nod. He let's go of me so I can sit up. And man, I've been In the position for a while so my back hurts.

"How many?" He asks me, fiddling with his hands, the same as I'm doing right now.

"1 or 2" I simply shrug, I never wanted a big family. I liked 1 or 2.

"Genders?" He also asks me, I really wanted a boy. Or a girl and a boy. I don't understand why, I've never grown up with a girl so ..

"Girl." He replies

"Boy."

"Okay, what would there names be then?" I ask him,

"Tony for a boy, the name sounds great. Tony Espinosa" I wink, He chuckles.

"I like Theo for a girls name, it sounds unique and it was my great great grandmas name. He frowns, she sadly passed in 2013. 2 years ago starting tomorrow.

"I get it." I frown, I kiss his cheek before grabbing my phone and deciding to go on twitter.

@ScarletxGilinsky: im not dead! Haha 😂

Matthew blows me a kiss, before exiting my room. Am I thinking way to fast? Am I overthinking all of this? I sigh and stare at myself threw t vanity mirror.

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