Realization - Pansy & Draco

2. Jealousy

"No no get off me i said NO!"

"Just a little Pans , you'll enjoy it"

"No please"

Pansy shot up from her bed with a cold sweat . The dreams never went away no matter how much she tried to get what happened out of her head . After almost 3 months she still had the same dream.

"I deserved it , After everything i did . I deserve it" she Whispered softly

She looked up with watery eyes at the Clock and saw it was 6:30 am . She slid out of her covers heading to the bathroom and turned on shower.

Pansy let the steaming water fall on her shoulders . the heat was excruciating but at last she felt something , For months she felt nothing . She scrubbed and scrubbed at her skin until she broke down .

"I cant anymore, noone cares for me I'm alone" she sobbed hugging herself

After several minutes of sobbing she composed herself and stepped out of the shower . She stood in front of the mirror analyzing every inch of her body.

It was still difficult looking at herself , Feeling ashamed she closed her eyes and stepped away heading to her wardrobe .

Pansy's narcissistic personality always made her look down on others , until that fateful day pansy was used to hiding her insecurities. But lately she's been finding it very difficult.

" i'm a Parkinson I have to be strong. Parkinsons don't cry , Parkinsons aren't weak" she kept repeating to herself until she finally found what she was looking for, Confidence.

With a pair of lace bra and knickers pansy slipped on her shortest skirt and her uniform shirt . Heading out the door she snatched her robes from her hanker and slipped out the door before Daphne could wake .

Before reaching the stairs that lead to the common room. pansy froze hearing the familiar voice stomach dropping instantly.

"Aren't you looking exquisite parkinson"

"Fuck off Pucey" she spat at the boy

Adrian Pucey one with a big ego , never took rejection well, partly because he was on the quidditch team . As so he got what he wanted no matter the cost.

Grabbing her by the wrist pulling her back towards him , slamming her on the wall , Face is so close their nose almost touching .

"Now Now Parkinson be nice or I'll teach you" He smirked

"GET . THE . FUCK . OFF" Pansy yelled

Before Adrian could answer the girl pinned on the wall , A familiar voice spoke .

"Let her go pucey " a stern voice Commanded .

Draco standing a couple feet away from then with his blood boiling. He felt the blood rush to his head .

Adrian smirk letting go of Pansy, leaning before leaving close to her ear and whispered

"You won't get away next time LOVE"

And with that he turned and walked off .

Pansy couldn't help her eyes water, quickly gathering herself as she walked away from Draco. feeling a hand on her waist , she flinched at Draco's touch .

Confused at her sudden action , Draco pulled away . And walked forward.

"What was that ? Are you fucking Pucey now ? Draco spat at her

With wide eyes her head snap toward him

"WHAT? You don't know anything Malfoy . So fuck off and shut itt." Pansy's ears burned

"you're such a fucking slut" Draco hissed at her.

Pansy eyes burned , how dare he assume something that he had no idea about . He had no right to judge her.

she ran down the spiral stairs through the common room and out the portrait with her hands over her face

Blaise and Theo were waiting downstairs for her. When she ran past. Both Confused and worried they looked up to me Draco's eyes , shrugging he turned around walking back to his dorm .

Runing through the Corredors she bumped into someone, she looked up it was Hermione Granger , Hermione looked puzzled , Who never saw Pansy cry .

"Are you okay?" Hermione asked Softly

"Oh fuck off Granger like you care" pansy shouted at Hermione

she began running once again, bumping into students so often only did she stopped when she couldn't feel her legs .

she looked up from her feet , in front of her the black lake shined with the sun reflecting on it's dark Waters. Pansy slumped down near a tree .

After a few minutes she heard footsteps nearing the spot she sat ,Secretly wishing it was Draco . Then a deep voice spoke

"what did he do pans?"

Pansy shot up from were she sat . Her Olive green eyes  locked on his soft brown ones. It was Theo . Her features soften .

"Oh Theo" she ran towards him . Wrapping her arms around him she broke down

"Theo he called me a slut , because Adr" she hesitated

Theo made his way with pansy to The edge of the black lake and slowly sat down . Laying her head on top of his lap . He twirled her hair while she explained everything in between sobs.

Theo spend the whole afternoon comforting Pansy. She appreciated his Company, pansy always knew that Theo fancied her . He never expressed his feelings towards her just flirted here and there .

" pansy we should go get dinner" Theo announced

" I'm not hungry" pansy frowned at him

" Okay beautiful " Theo softly smiled

He listens to her words as if they are golden, perhaps some elixir he's been waiting all his days to hear. And in his words are a kindness, a concern that is so quick that, for him, it is natural. This attentiveness is apart of who he is and that is, if She was honest to herself, the most attractive feature She's seen in a man for quite some time.

They both looked up at the sky, moon shining bright . Star scattered all over the sky . She felt safe. The first time in a long time she felt safe . Safe in his arms. She couldn't help but turn on her side and smile at him , admiring his features. His light brown hair fell perfectly over his sharp jaw line . He was a beautiful boy .

Without thinking Pansy grab his face and planted a kiss on his lips . Theo with no hesitation kissed back.

It wasn't a lustful kiss.

Her lips brushed his, softly, delicately, like butterfly wings, just long enough that he could inhale her breath, feel the warmth of her skin, he felt that the taste of her lipstick would linger far after she'd be gone.

Their eyes fluttered. He felt everything in that kiss . But she , she felt nothing .

In that moment she knew. realization hit her . DRACO . It was him and always will be him . But he had no desire for her . Her heart ache at the realization, no matter what she did Draco would never be hers. She was confused with emotions and thoughts. Soon pansy snapped out of her trans .

"Shall we go" Theo asked with a big smile offering his hand to her .

With that Pansy took his hand and let him guide her towards the castle .

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Entering the common room , there near the fire sat a blonde hair boy . His face glowing with the fire . He snapped his head to the two Slytherins. White knuckles from clenching his fist too hard, and gritted teeth from effort to remain silent, his hunched form exuded an animosity that was like acid - burning, slicing, potent. His face was red with suppressed rage, and when Theo set his hand on his shoulder as Pansy walked up to her room , he swung around and mentally snapped.