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Prologue

Tw: Abuse, Cutting, and Mentions of Suicide

I was walking home. Constantly stalling on the way, so I don't have to go back to that shitty place.

It's always a drag when mom mentions Yodo or some kind of girl I should be interested in, but whenever the thought comes to mind I don't even like girls.

Before I could think more, a close friend of mine Inojin Yamanka could be seen from afar, and it looks like he noticed me too sending a quick wave before rushing towards me.

"Hello, Shikadai!" He said in a cheery voice. I chuckle "Hey, what's got you in a good mood?" I asked him Inojin sent a death glare at me before speaking "Oh trust me Shikadai. I'm always like this!" He had said clasping his hands together.

Well that was a bold face lie I thought "Yeah, yeah. Whatever," I said "Anyways I should get going. My mom will beat the shit out of me if I'm gone for another millisecond."

Inojin had let out an adorable giggle which made me blush ever so slightly "Welp looks like times up, you better prepare that ass of yours cause Auntie Temari is beating ass!" He said before waving and walking off.

I power walked home, and ugh it was such a drag, but besides that Inojin... his laugh it was so cute!

In fact everything about Inojin was cute, so why am I just now thinking about this?

My thoughts soon come to a close after I open the door to my house with my mom smacking me with her fan.

The urge to swear was so high, but I had to resist, so I wouldn't face worse punishment.

You know after awhile you get used to this kind of treatment. Constantly getting beaten everyday over something petty or just because your mom's in a bad mood.

I honestly don't know how dad fell for a woman like her. "Why are you just now coming home??? You should've been back 30 minutes ago!!" Temari screamed

I muttered "what a drag," under my breath the whole street could probably hear her and that's embarrassing. "I was talking to a friend that's all." I said with an annoyed expression before getting up, and walking past my mom with a couple bruises on my face.

Mom looked pissed, but when does she not? It's always like this, and because of it, all I get is pity stares whenever I cross the street or enter a shop.

I walked into the bathroom to cover my bruises. I grab the bandages from under the cabinet and begin to tend them I saved the ones on my arm for last as I wanted to do something beforehand.

It's something I do to relieve stress, and sometimes just for the heck of it.

I grabbed a kunai from my pocket this time I was actually hesitant when doing it before I made the first cut something came to mind "What would Inojin think if he saw this?" I shake my head no he won't see this so there's no need to think about it.

I put the blade on my skin making the first cut. Slight blush appears on my face. I continue to cut myself making the blush on my face even redder more visible than ever.

All the fun was interrupted after my mom yelled my name to come and eat. She's seriously asking me to come eat with her? The nerve. "Yeah, I'm coming." I quickly wrap up my arm and pull back down my sleeves.

I make way down to the dining area with my mom waiting for me as if nothing ever happened what is wrong with her?

"Shikadai," I looked up from my food great now what does she want? "About Yodo. Why don't you like her?" She asked me. Are you fucking serious right now? You just beat the shit out of me, and now you want to talk about girls??? Honestly fuck you.

"Yodo is so bitchy, and annoying I couldn't spend a single second with her and if I had to I'd kill myself." I said looking back at my food not wanting to eat it.

"That's exactly how your dad felt about me. You too are so alike it kills me." She sighed I felt sick to my stomach I hated her she's like a light bulb with the flick of a switch she's all hot headed, and angry, but when you flip it agin  she's cold, and calm.

"Mom I'll never love her because I don't like girls. The thought of dating one disgust me." That slipped out on accident I didn't mean to say that infront of her.

It was quiet but not long after my mom's eyes were wide "What did you just say..?" She looked as if she were twitching I sat there quietly "Shikadai you like men?" It took her awhile to process, but once she did, it was over for me.

Temari had grabbed me by the neck choking me "Mom- *cough* Stop!" I begged but she when wouldn't listen she then started punching and kicking me "You can't be!" Was all I could hear her saying.

I was slowly losing conciousness until my dad walked in pulling  Temari off me. "Temari what the fuck??" Shikamaru screamed. I tried my best to run to my room but I ended up tripping, but then got back up.

All I could hear was screaming from my Mom and Dad. I slowly covered my ears as tears started falling from my face "I want to die.." I muttered countless of times but this time it was different this time the feeling was real I couldn't take anymore living was he'll.

Life itself was hell, and I didn't want to be apart of it anymore. I went to a drawer that had multiple pairs of kunais in it. I grabbed one and put it up to my throat. Finally I could end this. All of it.

The only thing I could hear was his laugh Inojin's laugh.

It would be the one thing I'd miss in this world. He was the only thing worth living for.

As I pulled the blade up to my throat a knock on the window could be heard, I turnt back with red eyes and tears still flowing down it was Inojin, and his face was filled with worry, guilt and pity.

Immediately Inojin let himself in, and jumped towards Shikadai with his face full of tears "I heard screaming, and came to check on you.

And of all things this is what I've least expected. So Shikadai please don't kill yourself! Do it for me, do it for the people who love you!" I yelled "No one loves me.." Shikadai responded with he sounded so empty almost lifeless.

Inojin didn't know how to feel "But Shikadai, I love you!" I told him "You mean so much to me and losing you... I- don't know what I'd do without you!" Tears began to flod my face.

Shikadai slowly hugged back dropping the kunai the two boys spent almost the whole night hugging and crying together. Tonight's events had them both feeling different ways. Inojin; Scared, Guilt, and Hurt. While Shikadai felt nothing, he wanted nothing more than death, but the one thing that kept him going, had stopped him.

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AN: Heya! So this is the first edit to the story and yeah I'm basically changing the whole story cause the last one was dooky butter and no one deserves to read garbage like that. So please tell me what yall think in the comments ^^