⚠️ TW panic attack
Louis woke up in the middle of the night because he heard someone gasping for air.
He turned his light on and looked at Harry who was struggling to breathe properly.
It looked like a panic attack. Louis knew how they looked like becaus stan got these occasionally.
He decided to stand up and walk to Harry.
"Hey Harry it's me is it okay if I try to calm you down?" Louis asked.
Harry nodded frantically and leaned on the wall behind him.
"I think you're having a panic attack. Do you think so too or is this a reaction to something you ate like nuts or something you're allergic to?" Louis asked.
"P-pa- panic..." Harry tried to answer but he struggled.
"Okay okay calm down it's going to be okay I'm here." Louis told Harry and placed his hands on Harry's knees.
"Please try to focus your breathing Harry.
In and out
In and out"
Louis tried to calm Harry down but it didn't work.
Harry looked at him with panicked eyes and grabbed Louis hands because he started seeing small black dots. Louis rubbed small circles with his thumb over Harry's knuckles and squeezed his hands a little bit.
"Shh it's okay we try a different method. You're going to be okay I'm here." Louis reassured him.
"Okay Harry can you try to tell me 5 things you can see?" Louis asked him.
Harry looked Louis in the eyes and tried to tell him what he saw.
"Y-Your ey-eyes, you're poster, y-y" he started gasping for air again and Louis squeezed his hands.
"It's okay just continue." He told him.
"Y-your h-h- hands, t-t-the wall a-and my d-desk." He answered.
"Really good. Concentrate on your breathing and tell me 4 things you can feel" Louis continued.
"Y-your ha..hands, the b-bed underneath me, my w-we-t cheeks and the w-all behind m-me." Harry told him.
"Really good Harry try to stay calm and tell me 3 things you can hear."
Louis looke at Harry and saw that he thought about it.
"The clock t- ticking, your v-voice and your breathing." He told him and Louis noticed that he was already a little bit calmer.
They continued and Louis asked what Harry could smell and taste.
After Harry answered Louis' questions he was calm enough to go back to sleep.
They laid down again and Louis turned his light off.
He laid in his bed and listened to Harry's breathing.
"Louis?" Harry asked quietly.
"Yeah?" Louis responded.
"Can you lay down with me? I'm still a little bit overwhelmed?" Harry asked quietly.
Louis didn't respond but stood up and walked over to Harry.
He laid down next to him and pulled him in a hug so he was spooning him from behind.
"Thank you." Harry whispered.
Louis woke up the next day because the sun was shining through the curtains.
He removed his hands from Harry's body and tried to get up.
He walked to the small bathroom and took a shower.
He was thinking about last night while the warm water touched his tense shoulders.
Why did Harry have a panic attack? Did he have a bad dream or was something else bothering him?
After the shower Louis put on new clothes and stepped out of the small bathroom.
He looked at Harry who was sitting on his bed. He looked exhausted and sad.
Harry broke the silence "Why do you hate me?" He asked with a quiet voice.
Louis almost didn't get what he said but he did.
"I don't hate you Harry." He breathed out and walked to Harry to place his hands on Harry's knees.
Harry looked at Louis with glassy eyes and a small sob escaped his lips.
"But y-you're so rude to me and so friendly and polite to the others. What did I do wrong?"
"Nothing." Louis answered but he couldn't meet Harry's gaze.
"Is it because I spilled that stupid coffe over you? Listen I'm sorry I didn't mean to I was just to shy to apo-" Harry was cut of.
"No it's not because of that. It's not your fault I promise and I'm sorry that I was so rude to you."
Louis told him and looked at him befor he asked
"Was that the reason of your panic attack last night?"
"Y-yeah kind of." Harry answered with a shaky voice.
"Kind of?"
"Yeah there's something else but I can't tell you that I'm sorry." Harry looked at his hands and started fidgeting with his fingers.
"Why not? I promise you I won't judge you." Louis answered and took Harry's big hands in his smaller ones to calm him down.
"L-Lou I like you. That's why I tripped in the diner. You are so beautiful and I was too shy to apologise. I never believed in love at first sight but you made my body tingle that day and every day after. It hurt that you were so rude to me because I didn't know why you were like that and you hurt my feelings every single day Louis.
A-and it's okay if you don't feel the same I get it but please just try to be a little bit nicer to me. We don't have to be friends but I don't want you to be rude to me all the time." Harry admitted and tried to pull his hands out of Louis grasp.
But Louis squeezed them tighter.
"Harry I like you too. When I saw you in that diner I stared at you because you were so beautiful with your curls and those green eyes.
I was so rude to you becaus I wanted to avoid my feelings for you.
Harry I feel the same way."
Louis was interrupted by Harry.
"You don't have to say that to make me feel better Lou."
"I'm not saying this to make you feel better. I'm saying this because it is the truth Harry.
I'm just a little fucked up. I had a boyfriend about a year ago and his name was Nick..."
Louis told Harry the whole story and in the end they were both crying and decided that they would start over with each other.
"Can I take you on a date this evening?" Louis asked Harry after a moment of silence.
"Yeah that would be nice." Harry answered with a big smile.
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