Little Bit of Everything

Once Pearly White

WARNING!! Gore/ Self Hatred (T+/ R)

"Ack" I cough up more blood into the pearly white, now splattered with crimson red blood bathroom sink. I grip the rim of the sink with my shaky hands hunched over it, my forehead touching the faucet. Slowly I look up into my reflection, and I am completely and utterly disgusted. By then I swear I fucking hate myself. I get the strength and curl my hand into a hard, balled, fist and punch the oval shaped mirror, shattering it everywhere.

Everywhere.

I wince looking down at the glass slivers in my skin and blood gushes out coating my hand with it. I step back looking at what I've done, eyes widen.

"W-wh....", I cant speak....

I slide down the wall of the once pearl white bathroom but now is covered with my blood, glass and more or less my dignity, soul and everything.

Simple everything.

I dont know wether to to cry or not, maybe scream. My head is racing past heaven and hell, jesus and satan, neither of them wanting me. Im just a lost soul now, not even able to burn in hell. The demons mock me. The angels shame me. I sit there, wanting to just end it there. Suddenly the darkness takes over me and I just sit there against the once pearl white bathroom waiting, waiting until the blood is drained out of me. Eventually it does, and my soul is no longer lost but gone.

Completely gone.

But.

My dignity, soul and everything still gone and plastered to the walls of that once pearly white bathroom.