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I write small pieces of poetry whenever I feel something. I hope maybe some of them make some of you feel something, too

My Depression

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by Made990126

by Made990126

Living with my depression
It means

Being tired all the time
But sleep can't fix it

Feeling heavy
But laying down doesn't help

Smiling on the outside
Not feeling a thing on the inside

Being hollow
But finding nothing to fill the hole

Switching moods all day long
Or being numb for days on end

Being on the verge of crying for hours
But not a single tear running down my face

Knowing to work out would help
But having no energy at all to do it

Going for a run with music until my lungs burn and my legs give out
Although being drained already

Doing all the things I like
But not finding any joy anymore

Feeling like I'm too much
While at the same time wanting to vent

Being self destructive in many ways
Just in the hope someone will notice and ask me what's going on

Saying "I'm fine" when asked
Because explaining isn't that easy

Cancelling plans with friends
In the fear of the outside world seeing me in my state

Feeling and looking like shit
But showering and doing the dishes becoming a task that too big to handle

Spending all my energy all day long
Just on keeping it together and silencing my thoughts

Zoning out on purpose
Because reality becomes too much

My head being so loud
That I can't hear the words of love and encouragement my friends give me

Not knowing what to do
Not knowing when it will get better
Not knowing how it will end

Hoping that one day
One day
Everything will somehow work out
Hoping that one day
I will be happy again