It's starting to feel hollow again
How do I know?
I can feel it and I can see it
I feel it in every fiber of my body and although my vision is blurry from all the tears left to cry I see it clearly as day
I see it getting hollow again
I stop singing along to the songs blasting in my car
I start to feel the music and understand the lyrics
My laugh becomes a mere reflex instead of an expression of joy
Every shower becomes an impossible task like pushing a boulder up a hill
That burning spirit becomes more attractive again and I don't know if I have the strength to resist
I see my reflection in the mirror at work but I don't recognize myself
The mask I put on has become to inscrutable over the years
Practice makes perfect, right?
I want to scream
I want to cry
I want throw my fist through the wall
I want to break down from exhaustion in the middle of the day
I want to melt down because it is getting to much
I just want someone to notice
To notice that I'm not okay
-"How are you today?"
"I'm good, thank you. How about you?"
Never has a lie been that easy to tell
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mind & heart & emotions & feelings
PoetryI write small pieces of poetry whenever I feel something. I hope maybe some of them make some of you feel something, too
