Instagram and celeb crush

Chapter 4

WARNING MENTIONS OF SELF HARM AND RAPE 

IF YOU ARE NOT COMFORTABLE SKIP THIS ENTIRE CHAPTER

I DON'T WANT TO MAKE ANYONE UNCOMFORTABLE

I AM NOT ENCOURAGING ANY OF THIS 

LAST WARNING 

When I woke up for the second time that day it was 6 in the evening, I glanced at my phone and noticed more messages, some were from Jake and Kiera and the others were from Jeremy. 

Hey y/n it's been two hours, are you okay?

Are you still with your friends?

Princess? Are you okay, I don't want to sound pushy. 

Do you not want to talk to me anymore? 

Did you fall asleep? if so, I'm sorry for trying to wake you. 

Sorry, my boyfriend cheated on me with my bestfriend and I fell asleep crying. I'm not ignoring you.

I read the text from Jake

Hey, what you saw between me and Kiera is not what you think it was. 

Babe, answer me.

Baby? Come on you really think I would do something like that to you?

I scoffed as I replied to this asshole

Then what was it? You two were practically eating each other's faces while you were grabbing her ass and moaning. And I am no longer your baby, we are not friends so leave me alone. 

Why is everyone in my life that I get close to horrible people, what have I done to them? I read Kiera's texts

Y/n Jake and I are not dating, I would not do that to my bestfriend.

I fell and he caught me then we got caught up in the moment

That's a damn lie and I know it, I'm not naïve, you are not my bestfriend. You know just how hard it is for me to say I love you too people and you just ignored the fact that this would shatter me, not break me but shatter me. I hate you, every ounce of you.  

At this time I was fuming, I have no friends now, good thing I don't want to go to the same college as them. Sadness filled me as I thought about my life and how fucked I am. I have no plan except to go to college, yet I don't know what for. I no longer have friends, to tell everything to. What if I just killed myself, would I be making their lives easier? Would I make my life easier by doing that? What about my family, do they love me? What am I thinking, of course they love me, my mom didn't even hesitate to burn the photos she didn't question me. I took in a deep breath deciding to think less of that topic. My phone buzzed and I almost didn't look at it.

Oh Princess, I'm sorry to hear that. You deserve someone who treats you right.

Jeremy text me, a small smile came to my face as I read the message

It's okay, I'll get through it somehow. 

Well you can talk to me about anything, I trust you 100%. 

You trust me? but we've never even met. 

I don't care if we haven't met, I want to meet you. Maybe one day we will meet.

Yeah one day in like 10 years and you won't remember who I am because you will have found yourself a wife. 

I don't think I will, finding love is difficult.