Without Love

Part 5

At Mings Coffee shop.

JINHWAN POV

I had my beanie on to put on a disguise. Got my earphones plug in while i try to write lyrics and drink a cup of tea.

"Its been almost a year now baby long time no see."

That was the first line i came up with. It all came back to me. The Japan tour we had a couple of months back.

Where am I now? Where are you now? Where should we be now?

If i could go back in time i wish this never happened to us. But what can i do now. Whats done is done. All i have are memories that i cant bring back. I justt have to make a better me around everyone.
I realized that i survived alone and wasnt into much depression. I was in too much stress to think about myself. And now its all sinking into me. A tear dropped on the table and i immediately wipped my face so that no one would see. I wanted to talk to her but i dont know how. Will she wait for me? I know shes looking down right now and wants send her love to me. This is what i want to tell you. I scribbled a couple of words and at the bottom i wrote.

"Baby dont worry."

I took up my things and head back to the studio before i bawl in public. Its hard for me to hold my tears. All the way to the studio my eyes were watery. Theres no use on listening to music when everything reminds me of her. I thought about visiting her parents but i dnt think thatll be a good idea.

To be honest i havent been myseld lately. Ive been worried about Hanbin and Bobby alot. Being hyung is hard but i have no choice I need to learn to lead the rest of the team while their busy with their affiliates. This is probably why i havent thought about anything else but my career. I really needed this time off. Himdureo.

In the studio.

Bobby was practicng his rapping skills while hanbin is on the other room recording something. i put my things down and sat on the floor took out my ipad and started writing lyrics again all my notes said
"Baby dont worry"
"Gidaryeo"
"Its been a long time"
"I want to see you kiss you and hug you"
Again all the feelings came back. i hang my head down since im at the studio nd no one would notice. i let my tears flow right out of me and i felt really good. i packed up and went to the bathroom. i washed my face and i quickly head back to the dorm. i would prolly have peace and quiet there. some private time maybe. it feels good to let all of that out although i was still holding back some of it. i didnt bother talking to the memebers before i left the studio.

Uri Jib.
No one is home just i have expected. the place was a mess but indidnt feel like cleaning, it seems that ahjumma isnt coming today because most likely she comes before this time of the day and ecpverything would be spotless. i took out some kimchi rice and eat it at the living room. i didnt turn the tv on since i wanted some quiet time. I played some michael jackson song to get some inspiration going on but nothing came to me.
I just played the MR over and over again until i got somthing. after prolly two hours i got what i wanted and called up hanbin.

On the phone
Hanbin: de hyung?
Jinhwan: i got the lyrics
Hanbin: eo jinja?
Jinhwan: de, ill send it
Hanbin: keureochi.
Jinhwan: iliwabwa.
Hanbin: were almost done. eodi itnayo?
Jinhwan: Jib
Hanbin: araso. see you later hyung. annyeong
Jinhwan: paliwa!

I went for a strol before i meet with the members at home. i think the life we livewith each other is care free and all we worry about is our music and dance. you could say we are living angood life but all must have an obstavle to go through before reaching the top. im notnsaying that i dnt like my members its just that i couldnt talk to them about my problem. theyve got all their worries at the same time. Bobby and bi on a survival tv show and the rest are also on a survival show on their own it seems like im the only one without aim. i, sure to debut but other than that what else. winne rhyungs have been busy lately for their guestings here and there. i try to reach them by imsg but i get no replies.

Its getting dark i think its time to go home.

HANBIN POV

Recording atlast. After a whole month of yes and nos eeve finally finished something. This is not for our album but for our final match.i hope everyone likes it especially Mr. Yang. Hes the first person who we should please amd thrn comes our listeners. Bobby and jinhwan are outside. I dont know what theyr doing though.

Earlier today i had breakfast with Chanwoo. Hes my favorite among the newbies. His sile would always semd that calm signal to anybody and make you feeel that evrythings gonna be okay. That probably why i feel much comfortsble with him. He mentioned thst he wanted to go home for the weekend but he couldnt since we have alot to do. His mom is opening a rstaurant and he wanted to surprise her. He also said thst they would have a local band singing for the opeing night. I agreedwith him and offered if he wants me to gonwith him.

Chanwoo: cheongmal?
Hanbin: ye man!
Chanwoo: eo! Kamsahamnida hyung!
Hanbin: as long as we would only spend one night here araso?
Chanwoo: copy that! Im so excited. lets sirprise mom. il buy her flowers.

Our breakfast turned into a meeting about how were gonna surpise his mom. but soon as Taeyang sunbaenim came in we wrapped up real quick greeted him and had a few chats but it wasnt that long because there were alot of awkward silences so we just took off and went to the studio.
Before dinner i was done recording the song and headed out to call bobby hyung and jinhwan hyung to lskten to it and let them criticize it. When i came out of the booth only bobby hyung was there.

Hanbin: wheres jinhwan hyung?
Bobby: nan molla
Hanbin: aish. Listen to the song i made. Ppalli.

Bobby was excited to do the song. He said thwt it was very energetic and would definately turn up the crowd and get them jumpin. He took a copy of it and played it an danced to it trying to make some routines that we could use.
I was listening to the song when my phone rang. It was ji hwan hyung. He said thst he had finished some lyrics amd is sending it to me but he wants me to go home already.

At home

Junhwe: Hyung!!!!
No one answered. Everyone looked for Jinhwan hyung but he wasnt home. I got worried because he said that he was home now hes not.

Bobby: he probably got us soemthing to eat. GOGI!!!! Bulgogi!!!
Junhwe: BULGOGI!
Donghyuk: gogi johayo!

My phone rang and i was expecting that it was hyung but when i checked it inwas surprised it was Minchul. I hesistated on showing bobby. I answered it after the word came out of her mouth i tuened white as a ghost. What happened. I was speechless. She kept saying hello but i could answer. Luckily bobby saw my shocked state and took the phone from me.

Bobby: wae?
Minchul: Oppa?
Bobby: wae?
Minchul: Jinhwan oppa is at the hospital he got hit by a car. It just do happen that Hyuna was there and she called me up to call you guys. Hyuna is with Jinhwan Oppa right now.

Hyuna is also a model in Paris but she is not very popular in korea since she focuses in fashion in paris. Bobby had his pissed off look and headed out. Me and yunhyeongi followed him. He took the keys to the car and we took off to the hospital.