Without Love

VIII

Bobby POV

At the Airport

We hurried to the front desk and asked what was the last flight going to France, the lady told me that they only had flights going to france two times a week and the last flight for the week just left and we ad to wait for 5 more days for the next flight. Aish, I turned to hanbin and sulked on our way home.

He pats my back while we were on our way to catch a taxi.

Hanbin: Bobby! We tried, maybe you guys should first focus on your careers and when the right time comes youd be together again.

Bobby: I have wasted my time focusing on this career. i have no regrets on this because we are going to debut but i think i have lost the most important thing that came into my life. i messed it up. do you remember what we did at her parents house? come think of it shes probably mad at me and wouldnt want to see me again but i didnt see any grudge in her eyes when ever i would see her, she still looks at me. i could almost feel that her love is still the same. how could be so ignorant to hurt someone like her. Eottekhe?

Hanbin: Come lets go get coffee before we go home.

*ring ring*

I heard Hanbin's phone rang. He answered it and it was Jinhwan hyung, asking how it went. Hanbin told him how we already missed the flight and asked us to go get some coffee near the dorm before we go.

As we reach the coffee shop me and hanbin got out of the taxi, he told me that he'd be going to the convenience store to get something for Jinhwan hyung and asked me if i could go get the coffee for us by myself. i was okay with that.

As i approached the coffee shop its seems like theres was no one there. I order two iced americano for us when I noticed there was a girl in the corner of the shop alone, sipping her cup. I headed towards the exit with a heavy heart, my headed wanted to turn and check if it was Minchul even just to see her face smiling I know ill be alright for the night. I clasped the door handle with my right hand and just held on looking on the floor. My feet were stuck on the floor while my heart beat got heavier.

It wouldnt hurt if I just pretended to sit near her table just to see her face. So i sat right by the table behind her, since there was a mirror on the wall that she faces, i could simply glance.

I havent even gotten close but when i looked into the mirror I saw her reflection. It was just a high school girl full of tears. I stopped in the middle of the coffee shop and dropped what I was holding. My heart broke into pieces, not knwoing what to do i watched her turn around and then she looked into my eyes wiped her tears and headed towards the door and ran outside.

For a minute I stood in the coffee shop, stuck like a rock. My heavy breathing and heavy heart couldnt let my foot and brain function. I was thinking of about her and I wasnt expecting to be stuck on this burden because wouldnt see her for a long time.

I had missed my first love.