There's no way there's no way. Tubbo kept repeating to himself after hearing the news. Him and Ranboo were the first ones to hear about what had happened as they were one of the very few people Tommy had trusted enough to call his friend. "Its my fault. "Tubbo remembered Sam repeated over and over again "I should have been there for him instead i left him alone in a confined space with his abuser how could I have been so stupid!" Now thinking back on it he probably should've attempted to comfort Sam, maybe tell him it wasnt his fault or not to blame himself something cliché like that. But he couldn't speak he couldn't move either, it was like he was frozen in time while the rest of his world crumbled.
All the time they had spent together, all the promises they had made, all the secrets they'd kept all gone just like that because of a manipulative green prick who decided to ruin everything and make everyone betray one another. Tubbo remembered a time before Dream, before L'manburg, before life went to shit. It was hard to find but it was there a time where Niki would sing him and Tommy to sleep, a time where the biggest mystery in his life was how he went from passing out on the floor playing games to waking up on Tommys bed. That mystery was solved years back it was just Tommy picking him up from the floor and sitting him on his bed cause he was to small to actually carry him all the way up to Tubbos bed on the top bunk.
Tubbo had liked the time he had shared with his family now hes basically the only one left Wilbur died, Tommy died as well, Phil was never around much anyway, and Techno well he just kind of went insane. Well he still had Niki...kind of she had gone from an older sister role model to the villian. Now in the present time he had Ranboo and Michael which obviously was still his family but it didnt feel the same. Tommy, Wilbur, Techno, and Niki were basically his sibling and they all had left him. Tubbo liked to imagine Techno was sad, he liked to imagine Niki felt bad or Tommy and Wilbur were having a party in the after life and were looking down at him.
or up cause lets be honest everyone character on the smp is going to hell
Currently Tubbo found himself in front of Tommys grave breaking down at 2 in the morning. He had snuck out while Ranboo fell asleep he needed some alone time. Ranboo had been such a great help at trying to make Tubbo happy but all Tubbo needed was to cry but he knew he couldn't cry infront of Ranboo cause that would make him cry to and he would wind up with more scars on his face.
It started as Tubbo just crying, then he started talking to...himself? It was aimed towards Tommy but obviously Tommy couldn't hear him cause he is dead no matter how much Tubbo wanted to accept it his bestfriend had died. It slowly went from talking aimlessly to no one intertitular to screaming, he started screaming things like "what am I without you?" or "what am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?" along with "All good things really have to come to an end."
Ranboo woke up to what sounded like his (platonic) husband crying. He got out of bed put his shoes on and headed for the door. He opened the door and saw Tubbo on his knees infront of Tommys grave crying. Ranboo walked over sat next to him and rubbed his hand up and down his husbands back "i-im sorry." Tubbo sobbed out realizing Ranboo was there "Its okay you've been through alot." Ranboo moved and let Tubbo sob into his arms.
Okay thats it guys sorry its so late and kind of shitty its 2AM on a Monday I am working on another chapter but its taking a long time to write this idea came to my mind when i heard part of the song "Breakeven" on a tik tok I even put part of it in this fanfic if you noticed but im going to bed now later losers.
