Bad Reputation (In A Relationship With EXO DO✅)

Thirteen

"Aren't doctors supposed to opt in for good habits?"

Wei, my fellow medical team member, came to me, and I smiled. Taking another drag, I chuckled. "Don't know what to answer to that." I shrugged before throwing the almost done cigarette on the ground and stomped it.

"Sunbae, I have heard that doctors smoke when they are really really stressed," Wei told me, her eyes wide open in curiosity. "Are you having some kind of trouble?"

"I think the whole world is in a big trouble. You're noticing how the cases are hiking up day by day. Aren't you?" I turned to her, and she hummed. "If this continued, this would be soon announced as a pandemic."

"Ah!" Wei nodded as if she just realized the depth of the situation. "We won't be able to make time for us then. Doctor life is already hard enough, I really hope things get settled down silently."

"I'm not sure." My eyes went past her to see Kyungsoo waving at me lightly as if he had been wanting my attention on some urgent matter. I bit the inside of my cheek to suppress my smile, but somehow Wei noticed it.

"Sunbae, why are you -" She looked around and Kyungsoo hid behind the wall. "Smiling? Are you feeling alright?" she asked, and I shook my head, waving away the matter.

"I'm good. I'm going for a walk, will see you later." I jogged towards the building and saw Kyungsoo walking away. Looking around, I followed him and we met at some distance from the military camp. "Hi!" I was almost out of breath when we came across each other.

Kyungsoo smiled gently and took a step toward me as he pulled me into a warm hug. "Hello Dr Kang," he mumbled as I hugged him back and bathed in his scent and calmness. Sometimes I wondered if he was real. He was so good, kind, mature and talented and considerate. "I missed you..."

He moved back and caressed my hair. "I missed you too. You're looking beautiful today."

"And my earrings?" I teased, and to my surprise, he actually pushed my hair back to check if I was wearing any, and made a face when realised I was joking with him. My cute innocent man. "Did you have a good day?"

Kyungsoo ruffled my hair, and nodded. "Come, let's sit there." He gestured towards a rock, and we both sat there. "Is Ray treating you good?" His tone was different and I froze before looking at him. "Ray is a friend. I told him about... about us. Are you not comfortable?"

I flickered my eyes back to the lake. "He's a good mentor, friend sometimes... If you're okay with him knowing these things then I'm good."

"Thank you."

We sat there. In each other's company. With him being an idol, and me being busy with the regular checkups of the soldiers, it was never easy to find a peace in each other's company like this. So, when moments like that happened I cherished them, because they did not happen as often as I would like.

"Jia... I'm sorry." He said out of nowhere, and I frowned. "The past you have been talking about, I know what's it. I heard about it from the new medical team." Placing an arm over my shoulder, he made sure I won't step back. "I didn't mean to. I just went there to give them supplies and happened to hear about it."

"You don't need to apologize." I looked at him. "But wait, that's our problem, isn't it? I never do what you want me to do. I should have been honest with you, you must want out now."

"What this is about?"

"I don't know, why don't you tell me." I turned cold eyes on him, but the moment I saw the confusion and pain in his gaze, something broke free past the anger. When I looked at him right now I knew that he loved me. There was no doubt in my mind that Kyungsoo loved me more than anything, but after knowing what he'd come to know, I was realizing that no amount of love in the world meant that their relationship would last.

"Wait. You don't think that I'm having a negative aspect of our relationship?" he asked and when I stayed silent, he came in front of me. "I apologised because I got your past from someone else rather than you. I wanted to hear it from you."

"Kevin was married, Kyungsoo. I was in a relationship with a married man. I ruined someone's home. His wife... Oh my God," I was going to leave, but he kept a hold on me. "Please... Let me go. I can't be here." I avoided his eyes.

"Did you know that he was married?"

I shook my head. "I had no idea, still it doesn't make it better. That ugly thing still happened. Do you know his wife stayed in the hospital for almost a week because she had went into a major shock after knowing her husband's cheating scandal. She even tried to end her life.... And I was a part of her struggles. I did that to her."

"You were played just like that woman. Stop punishing yourself." Kyungsoo cupped my face, staring deep into his eyes. "You're better than this. Stop it. Please...Jia."

I wished that I could explain it to him. I wish there was some way I could make him understand, but I didn't know how. I barely understood any of it himself. Everything had appeared fine one day and the next it wasn't. I knew that things had deteriorated over time, and not overnight, but it had all hit me at once. The truth had snuck up on me and punched me in the face. It just wasn't something that could be explained.

"I try... I try so hard to accept what happened. I just can't..." My tears had dried out. "His wife... She told me on the day of her discharge that she hoped I won't ever find happiness... She said it to me as she hugged her three year old girl." I glanced at Kyungsoo. "Whenever I try to stay happy, get out of this... I'm reminded of what I have done, and I feel like I don't deserve it."

"Jia..."

"I don't deserve you too." Another tear rolled down my cheek. "I don't deserve anything good. I had them divorced."

He kissed my forehead. "Nobody ever tells you this when you're younger. No one sits you down and lets you know that sometimes life is going to suck, and people are just going to flat out hurt you. They never explain that the pain isn't any different just because someone didn't mean to hurt you." He sighed. "There's just talk of following your heart and finding your other half. You happened to love Kevin, and he happened to be a bad guy, it isn't your fault."

I gently wiped my tears away from beneath my eyes, trying not to smear any of my make-up. "Thank you for reminding me again."

Kyungsoo reached up to touch the corner of his eye. "You've got a little spot." I attempted to wipe it off, but without a mirror, I only managed to smear the black spot more. "Here," he leaned forward and brushed his thumb over the spot, until he finally rubbed it away. "There."

Our eyes met over his hand as he continued to softly run his finger over the silky skin of my cheek. His gaze flickered to my mouth. "All gone?" I whispered, and he moved his gaze back me.

"Yeah, all gone."

I swallowed thickly. "Good."

"Yeah," he breathed. "Good."

Everything happened so quickly I didn't know who made the first move. Our lips were suddenly on each other and his fingers delved into the thick tresses of my hair. The sound of my moaning when his tongue delved into my mouth only spurred him on. He ran his hands down to my hips and pulled my upper body against his until my breasts were pressed firmly against his chest.

"Jia!" It was Hwanhee's voice nearby, and we pilled away from each other.

"I'm coming!" I instantly stood up, managing to avoid looking in his direction the entire time. I didn't say another word as I walked to Hwanhee and met her just around the corner.

"What were you doing there? I have been looking all over the place for you." She pulled me towards the cafeteria, and I glanced over my shoulder to see Kyungsoo standing there. I smiled a little when he waved at me. "I heard some soldiers talking about you. They're really going to try their chance on you." Hwanhee went on.

Too late for that.

My mind flashed back on my kiss with Kyungsoo. I was already his. Nobody had a chance now.

The thought made me smile.