Peaky Blinders Imagines

1- Unattainable; Tommy Shelby

As I stepped out of the car onto the cobbled street of Small Heath, the familiar smell of smoke and coal filled my lungs. I moved to London two years ago as the result of my fathers passing, there was too much emotion and memories in the small area in Birmingham, I needed a break. I was sad to leave  the Shelby's, they were like my second family. Polly always fed us when my mother died and my father couldn't put food on the table. 

After my two year break in London, I'm more than ready to move back. I've gotten over the death of my dear father and I'm ready to be back in the Business.

Before I had left I was "involved" with Tommy, we had always had eyes for each other and we often slept together whenever it suited either of us. We never had anything serious though, God forbid the unattainable Thomas Shelby had a serious relationship after all.

I walked towards the oh so familiar house on Watery Lane, I had decided against telling anyone I was returning, I want to see their reaction.

I knocked on the door firmly, after a couple of seconds the door creaked open slightly and through the crack I could just about see the one and only Polly. Once she saw who was on the other side of the door she opened it fully.

"Well would you look what the cat dragged in !" Polly exclaimed,"Polly bloody Shelby, boy am I glad to see you !" I said to the shocked looking woman.  

" Come in, Come in" , I stepped inside the door and followed Polly into the dining room. I took a seat in one of the arm chairs and warmed up beside the blazing fire. "Arthur, John get your arses in here" Polly shouted towards the kitchen. Not too long after the two men waltzed through the door and their faces lit up when I came into their line of vision. "Amy fookin Black, long time no bloody see." Arthur's familiar voice boomed, as he came over and engulfed me in a tight hug. "Am I seein' things or are you actually back ?" John questioned as he walked towards me to give me a hug, "I'm definitely back Johnny boy" I said hugging John.

After greeting the three Shelby's, I sat back down. "Where's Ada ?" I asked. "She should be here soon, she just went out to the market with Karl." Polly replied. I turned to look at her, "Who's Karl ?" I questioned, "Christ I'd forgotten you've never met Karl, you missed quite a bit while you were gone." Polly said "Karl's her son" she said once again. "Wow, so Freddie got the chance to knock her up before he died then I suppose." I said light-heartedly, they all laughed heartily when suddenly the front door opened.

Ada walked into the room with a small child on her hip and a basket full of food in her spare hand. She looked at her family members, not noticing I'm here, "Why are you all staring at me ?" she said, I coughed lightly causing Ada to notice me in the armchair. "No bloody way !" she exclaimed, she set down Karl and the basket of food, "Well Ada Shelby, how have you been ?" I said while jumping out of my chair and heading towards her to give her a hug. "And you must be Karl" I said whilst kneeling down to greet the child, "It's a pleasure to meet you " I said and shook the little boys hand, causing him to giggle.

We sat around in the dining room for some time,sipping on whiskey and everyone catching me up on anything I had missed. Everything was going swimmingly until once again the front door opened. I knew it was Tommy the moment he stepped in, from the sound of his voice. However to my surprise he wasn't on his own. With him was a beautiful blonde haired woman.

"Amy ?" Tommy said with a shocked expression. "Hello there Tom..." I said with a hint of disappointment in my voice (which didn't go unnoticed by Polly). " I didn't realize you were coming back." Tommy said, as if he were trying to defend the fact he was with another woman, even though we never had anything serious, I still hoped we could rekindle when I came back. "Yeah I thought i'd surprise everyone, but it looks like i'm the only one who's surprised at the moment." I turned to look at the pretty woman with Tommy. "And you are ?" I asked her. "I'm Grace" she said with a hint of jealousy portraying on her face. "Are you a whore Grace, or are you Tommy's new woman ?" I asked bluntly, trying to get a reaction. I'm angry now. As soon as the words left my mouth I could see Tommy's jaw clench and his fists tighten.

"Alright Amy, that's fucking enough. Grace go on home, while I sort this out." Tommy said and opened the front door for Grace to walk out. "Oh what a gentleman Thomas, it appears chivalry isn't dead after all." I said rage laced in my voice. I came back here not only to get back in the business, but to be with Tommy, and now this Irish broad had added fuel to the fire.

Tommy ignored my sarcastic comment and walked towards me, grabbing my arm and attempting to drag me out of the room. "Oi ! What the fuck do you think you're doing !" I exclaimed, very unhappy at his aggression. "We're going outside to have a little chat." He said "Okay, Okay, but you are not dragging me anywhere" I said adamant not to be thrown around like a rag doll. Deciding not to protest any further, I gave in and followed Tommy out the front door.

The streets of Small Heath were quite now, aside from the roaring of the fires from the surrounding factories. It was after 6 o'clock now and the sun was setting. This was my favourite thing about the evenings in Small Heath, the sunsets made me feel at ease, and at home.

"Care to explain what that tantrum was about ?" Tommys voice snapped me out of my thoughts. "Look Tom I didn't come back to fight with you-" Tommy cut me off "Really? Well your behaviour proves otherwise." He stated snarkily, "Hilarious, but no I came back because I missed it here, and I missed everyone..... even you." The last part of that statement being almost inaudible, but Tommy heard.

"Yeah well I missed you too...." he said trailing off, "But you're with Grace now, I understand, I just assumed when I came back me and you could become serious." I looked down at my feet trying my best to hide my disappointment. "Don't ask me to choose between you and her." Tommy finally said. "Why, because you'll choose her ?" I asked, hoping that he'd say no.

"Yeah.... I think I love her." Tommy stated. Tears began to well up in my eyes, but I held them back with all my might. I was not going to break down in front of him right now. This was the most personal Tommy had ever gotten with me, it was strange to see him so vunerable.

"Well fuck me, Tommy Shelby, in love ? That's something I never thought i'd hear.....well I'm happy for you Tom." I said with the biggest smile I could muster up. I looked into his eyes and he pulled me in for a hug. I pulled away and kissed him passionatley on the lips one last time. "For old times sake." I said with one stray tear escaping my eye.

I turned away from Tommy and walked down the cobbly street once more, knowing I could never have the unattainable Tommy Shelby, because he'd already been attained, just by another woman.