I don't blame you buckyxreader

Part 3 I don't blame you

Once you had all arrived into the building Steve immediately called a team meeting

'Guys I want you all to meet Bucky, he's going to be joining us as our newest avenger'

Bucky lifted his head and gave a slight smile before it faded and he went back to staring at his hands

'Y/n seeing as you're all alone on the third floor he's going to be staying in one of the rooms there' Tony said 'I've had someone make up his room so if you could show him that would be wonderful' He chuckled, you were never one for meeting new people and he knew this.

You rolled your eyes as you stood up and gestured for Bucky to follow you. You weren't sure what to say to him. Nat had told you not to bring up his past as it triggers bad memories and can cause issues. You were terrible at small talk.

'so, hows it feel being the newest avenger eh?' why did you say that? could you not think of anything better?! You let out a little chuckle to try to save yourself...it didn't work

'not bad I guess' he said with a slight smile.

You reached the third floor and opened the door to his new room

'I know it's not much but feel free to decorate it anyway you want, it's all yours'

'thank you' he replied quietly 

'My name is y/n by the way' you smiled at him, trying your best to make him feel welcome 'my room is just opposite this one so if you need anything or just fancy a chat feel free to knock on my door. I'll leave you to get settled'

He smiled at you as you left the room and shut the door. You let out a deep breath as you walked towards your room. You felt your cheeks going red hot again! why?

You opened your bedroom door to find Nat sat on your bed reading a magazine you left on your bedside table

'OH MY GOD Nat you scared the life out of me!' she always came into your room without you realising but she still made you jump every time.

'sooooooooo...' she was grinning, a little too much for your liking

'soooo what?'

'The new guy!' she put down the magazine stared at you

'what about him?' 

Suddenly Wanda burst out of the bathroom 'come on y/n tell us!'

'JESUS!' you screamed as she made you jump

'no, Wan-da...now what do you think of the new guy?!'

'he seems nice I guess' you were so confused

'ugh y/n we saw how you two stared at each other earlier...c'mon talk' Nat was so persistent when she wanted to know something

'I've told you! He seems nice'

'hmm' Wanda tilted her head at you 'you better start talking soon or I'll go into that little head of yours and find out myself'

Her and Nat chuckled as they walked out of the room and shut the door. You fell back onto your bed and let out a big sigh as you heard a knock at the door.

'come in'

'y/n?' it was Bucky

'Oh hey Bucky, everything ok?'

'yeah sorry for bothering you, I just wanted to say thank you for being so nice to me earlier...after y'know...everything I've done'

'what do you mean? you haven't done anything to me...and I don't blame you for what you've done in the past it wasn't you'

'oh did Steve not tell y- nevermind, see you later'

'wait Bucky, what are you talking about?'

He came and sat down on the bed next to you

'y/n I'm so sorry...'

'what for?'

'well when I was coming here with Steve and Tony, Steve was telling me about everyone and their past...y'know just so I can get some understanding. He told me about your Father and-'

'Bucky what is it?'

'well the thing is...when he spoke about it, it a brought back a memory, not a good one. Y/n I think I'm responsible for your dad's death. I'm so sorry. It's all my fault, I should go. I'm sorry'

You felt tears building in your eyes as he stood up to leave. You were hurt, you should've hated him but...you didn't. It wasn't his fault

'Bucky wait!' He turned around with a worried face. 'It's ok, I don't blame you. It wasn't your fault, you didn't know what you were doing. You weren't in control'

'but-'

'no buts Bucky, it wasn't you' you gave him a warm smile, you could see a feeling of relief in his face covering his feelings of guilt.

'thank you' he said quietly, smiling back. You gave him a hug, you could see how bad he felt but you couldn't blame him, he had no control of himself.

'Come on lets go downstairs and get something to eat' you said, changing the topic of conversation. You buried your pain and got on with the day.

A/N: I hope anyone that ever reads this is enjoying it so far?