Stay for a While

STAY 4

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STAY 4

Before I could start the story, he got a call at sinabing may aasikasuhin lang kung kaya’t naiwan akong mag-isa sa loob ng kwarto ko. So I decided to open my journal and decided to read what I have written simula senior highschool.

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Amaya Rianne Catriana

17, 09*********

December 24, ****

I smiled while looking at it. I never thought na magkakaroon ako ng journal. Dems’ my own journal you know. Lahat sinasabi ko sakanya so why do I need to write when Dems’ always with me? 

That’s what I thought.

Before, all I know was not to depend on others too much. Pero I only ate what I had said when I met Dems. I never thought that I would find someone who won’t be tired of my rants, my dramas, anything. 

I remembered that I told her “I don’t want to treat you as my best friend tho. I want to treat you as my sister.” Damn. I was so embarrassed. But knowing her, she’s not a showy person. Pero sobrang lakas mang-asar! Heck! She’s not also sweet. But my heart warmed when she started calling me “Sis”, or “Sister”.

Pero, as I have said, she’s also a lost girl. While opening to her, she’s also opening to me. Her dramas, thoughts, anything. But little did I know, as she kept on opening her heart to me, napapalayo na pala ang loob niya sa mga magulang niya. She’s an only child. Kaya’t natural na lamang ang magiging reaksyon ng mga magulang niya but I never thought that a day would come na hindi muna kami pwedeng mag-usap because of her own family problems. And that resulted for me to start writing.

I started reading the first page.

Life is where love exist. So hard to win but a choice to fight for or it’ll be your loss. Life for me is boring. Well, based on my experiences. I have health issues, few friends, introvert type of girl, so yah. I don’t interact that much. No thrill, and limited fun.

But still, finding happiness from the people I love is where my whole world turns (fam, friends, love) lol

Life is what we should be thankful.

Despite of the challenges, there’s the love that will help us win our life.

And yah! I agree. It’s a roller coaster ride. It depends whether you enjoy the risks or initiate retreat and stop the ride just because you let fear and weakness overflows you.

Higit sa lahat, life is God. He gave us our lives and He’s the reason why we win this because of the hope and love He gave

I again smiled after reading it. Ang dami mo nang pinag-daanan, Amaya. I can handle life’s challenges but damn. Bakit sunod-sunod?

Noon, I kept on asking kung bakit ako? What did I do at bakit parang pinaparusahan ako? Pero ngayon, I’m just too tired to confront life that I decided to open my arms widely and accept the challenges that it kept on throwing me.

I remembered Dems saying, “We’re a keeper but never been kept.”

I thought that not being appreciated is one of the greatest pain. But, I never thought that a day would come na ang lahat ng kinakatakutan mo para sa isang tao ay mangyayari sa isang iglap.

I had feared that his love for me will fade, I won't be enough for him, and I won't be his girl anymore. But the greatest pain that I had encountered was a name.

Altair Jenon Cyrus

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