Have you ever felt this way?

Better person

Spencer's POV:

I sit down on hannas bed and cry into her pillow.

He wanted to hurt me and he could have easily done so.

It makes my stomach hurt when I think of the times he's touched me. He could have hurt me.

He always seemed like he wasn't nice to anyone else but me (at times) and sometimes I appreciated that but now it's... Weird.

I lay down on bed remembering he saw me sleeping. I trusted him... I was going to marry him!

I get a cal from him and I feel a put in my stomach.

My instinct is to ignore him but if I do he will know I know.

I pick it up and smile to myself to make me sound happy.

"Everything okay?" He asks.

"Yeah... It was just... Girl talk..." I lie.

"Err okay well come back soon?" He asks.

"Actually... I think I'm going to stay the night at Hanna's..." I say. "...okay. Call me later... Bye." He says.

"Bye." I say hanging up.

Emily and Hanna walk in and I sigh in relief. "Mind if I stay the night..?" I ask wiping away my tears.

"Sure... Em wanna stay to?" Hanna asks.

"Oh my dads back in town... In fact I should probably get going right now." She says looking at Hanna's alarm clock.

"Oh okay... Bye." Me and Hanna say as Emily walks out.

He was my safe place to land. The person who saw the best in me... But if he was in love with me he would tell me and we could get through his illness together.

I would still love him if that was the case... But instead he used me.

He used all of us.

(That night)

"I think I'm just gonna go to bed..." I say to Hanna.

"Okay... Well if you need me ill be on the couch.." She says.

"Okay..." I say Laying on her bed.

I wake up only to see a dark shadow watching me sleep.

I look closer to see its toby.

He pulls me to him roughly and covers my mouth.

"Hanna's asleep. Your coming with me. We need to talk." He says.

I nod and he drags me out of the house and into his car.

"Please tell me what they said wasn't true..." I say now whimpering.

He looks out the window and doesn't say a thing.

I try to get out but when I do Toby pulls me onto him squeezing me.

"Let me go!" I scream.

He puts his hand over my mouth and brings my head to his chest.

"No stop!" I scream.

He begins driving with one hand holding me close to him with the other.

We go to the same place he purposed and he brings me far away from the edge of the cliff.

"Don't do anything your going to regret.." I say knowing there's no way to fight him.

"I'm not trying to hurt you baby." He says.

"Then let me go!" I demand.

"I just need you to listen okay?" He asks.

"No! I'm not going to me you talk to me!" I scream kneeing him in the gut.

"I promise I can explain but please if I let you go stay here." He pleads.

I simply nod knowing if I don't he would just continue hoping me.

"Okay... Yes it's true. I used to be pretty fucked up. Then after I broke up with Ali I felt very... Angry. For me reason. Then You started tutoring me and I saw something in you. I fell for you. And when we kissed I saw an opportunity... You made me a better person." He says. My heart melts and I want to kiss him...