Have you ever felt this way?

Used up

Spencer's POV:

"I- Im just going over to Caleb's... Will you be okay?" Toby asks.

"Yeah... Have fun." I say smiling.

"Okay... Bye..." Toby says walking out.

I turn on the TV and make popcorn when I get a text.

I look at it, only to see its Caleb.

"Hey... We really need to talk." Caleb says.

"Why? Aren't you hanging out with Toby?" I reply.

There's no response for about 5 minutes when I see the typing icon.

"Oh god... Spencer, I'm on my way." He says.

I try asking him why, but there's no response.

I here a light knock on the door and I open the door for Caleb. "W-what's going on? Is everything okay?" I ask, dumbfounded.

"Y-you should sit down..." Caleb says.

I slowly sit down and I see his eyes welling up with tears.

"Is everything okay?!" I ask.

"Spencer... When we were at the bar last night, I'm pretty sure Toby had sex with another women... I saw them kiss then go into a closet--" I storm of and slam the bedroom door.

I feel no emotion as I grab a picture of us and rip it in half.

I rip up the part with me, then him. Slowly.

I grab red lipstick and right in beg letter son the wall, "you cheating fucking asshole. You raped your fucking sister you dirty pig." I write.

For a moment I wonder if I went to far, then I realize he had sex with another women, probably with no condom.

I begin feeling infuriated again and I hear Caleb slamming in the door.

I open the window, and jump out. Thank god this is he first floor.

I realize what just happened, when I begin shaking. I feel tears stream down my eyes, as I run to the street.

It's my fault... I can't please him with this body... I'm just skinny... He must want a girl with curves... I'm sure she's even prettier than me!

I get into the car and I see Toby's car pulling up. He looks very happy, probably just got back from another fuck session with that slut...

I get out of the car shakily, when I see Caleb running out.

"Spencer! There you are! I-" he sees me crying, and Toby looking confused.

I take heavy breaths, and I see Caleb walk over to Toby.

He gives me a reassuring look... Then he punches Toby!

"What the hell! We were barely even drunk!" Caleb yells. "Spencer's pregnant... YOU GUYS WERE GONNA GET MARRIED!" Caleb adds.

"I can't believe it... I gave you everything..." I say, sniffling.

I turn around, and a couple tears stream down my face.

I get up my car, and Toby doesn't even say anything.

I wipe away my tears, an drive away.

I drive to hannas, and knock on the door.

He answers... And lets me in after seeing my tears.

"What happened, sweety?" She asks.

"I... Toby was cheating on me..." I say. I begin bawling again... He's probably gotten her pregnant already.

"Oh god..." Hanna says softly. "But Caleb took care of him... He punched him." I say sniffling. I feel my nose stuff up and my eyes burn.

Hanna pulls me into another hug, when Caleb walks in.

"W-what happened after I left?" I ask.

"I yelled at him... He didn't even talk... He just cried." Caleb says.

"Well, ill talk to him then..." I mumble. "Okay... But please be careful..." Hanna says.

"Okay..." I say.

I walk to the door and go back to the house.

Toby is sitting there staring at a tree.

"... Can we please talk?" I feel my heart drop wen I see him. He's not even sad...

"No." Toby says coldly.

I feel my body go numb and I feel like I can only make him feel bad. "Well, okay then.... You've succeeded." I say.

"What?" He asks. "You... Trying to act to cool to talk to me. I feel so stupid..." I say walking away.

My heart drops when he says nothing back.

"Goodbye..." I mumble, throwing the engagement ring at him.

I get into my car and feel so stupid for coming here... Why can't I get it?! It's over. I'm just... Used up. He doesn't want me anymore... And I must be so annoying, following him around.

I thought... Maybe it wasn't the truth. Maybe there's more to it... But then he would actually still love me, I guess not.

I almost begin driving when I see Toby walking over to my car.

I roll down the window.

"We'll talk later..." He says, then walks away and into the loft.

I roll up the window and drive back to Hanna's, hoping there's a lot more to it.