it was hard. it was hard not to look at him, it was hard not to stay somehow close and it was so, so hard to just let his mashiho be with someone else.
every time he saw their hands linked, eyes focused on each other, mouths curved in smiles, a little needle was going through his heart, injuring it lightly but tangibly.
but he knew, he wasn't the only one. the feeling of deprivation was hard to endure for mashiho as well. junkyu could clearly see it. the way he behaved, the way his smile had that trifle gloom, which was visible only for the other.
the way mashiho looks at junkyu was different. his pupils widen, irises twinkle inexplicably, the eyes got more amiable and they exude... sheer love. when he looks at jihoon it just disappears. void of love, little stars, admiration, but filled with hesitation, guilt, and longing to say "i am sorry, but i can't."
how much he just wanted to say it out loud. how much he needed to hear "it is okay, it is not your fault." and freed himself. being able to nestle up into junkyu's arms again.
alas, at the present moment, the arms wrapped around him weren't junkyu's. and all he could do was act as if nothing was wrong.
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Fanfiction| jihoon did not notice the longing in mashiho's eyes to come back to junkyu. | ENG | pairing : kim junkyu & takata mashiho start : 18.02.21 end : 23.03.21 #1 in mashi ♡ 감사합니다 ^ - ^ (short!story&chapters!)
