uplifting || behzinga

5

i slowly opened my eyes to ethan laying beside me, 'fuck' was the first time that crossed my mind. did we fuck or did he just crash and stay over? although if we fucked surely we wouldn't be fully dressed in clothes from last night, ethan even had his jacket on.

i reached for my phone, sitting up and checking my notifications. a few minutes passed when i heard a loud groan, i tilted my head to look over at ethan, "shit." he muttered, "i must of feel asleep." he yawned.

"mhm." i hummed looking up at him, "was i bad last night?" i giggled.

"you were absolutely fucked mate." he laughed picking up his phone.

i stretched my arms before getting up from my bed, "i'm starving." i yawned walking towards my closet looking for a nice pair of jeans. pulling out a pair of misguided jeans my tummy rumbled, "fuck sake." i groaned picking up my phone, "want a maccies?" i said clicking on my order. he nodded as i passed the phone to him.

i pulled my jeans on under my dress and rummaged in my drawer for a bra and top. "don't looking, i don't have a bra on."

"m'kay." i said throwing his hands over his eyes as i removed my dress and clipped my bra on, flinging it around and pulling the straps onto my shoulders. then throwing the top over my head, "you can look now." i chuckled.

i walked towards that door, "i'm going to the kitchen." i smiled back at ethan before shutting the door.

"alright you?" evie looked up from the tv as i walked in.

"mhm." i hummed nodding my head gently.

"did eth stay or go?" she smiled gently.

"stayed." i shrugged as the buzzer went off. "food." i silently cheered buzzing the driver up.

"thank you." i smiled passing him a five pound tip. "have a canny day."

i walked to my room with two mcdonald's bag in my hands having a silent party grinning at evie.

"food." ethan screams, "get in."

"never ever say get in again." i moaned , he rolled his eyes taking a bag out of my hands.

we sat in my bed eating our mcdonalds and laughing at each other. "hm." fell from ethan's lips as he looked at me holding my tummy.

"what?" i squinted my eyes at him.

"nothing." he sighed putting his final nugget in his mouth.

i nodded at him before throwing my head back and sighing, "i miss 2019, we could actually go out out." i yawned.

"don't we all mate." he shrugged, "corona fucked up my lifestyle."

"and mine." i giggled, "i find it hard to believe there was a time that we were in the pub every night and it was legal." i let out a slight chuckle.

"oh my lord flor, remember when fans used to see us out and immediately assumed shit." he said, i immediately threw my head in my hands out of embarrassment.

"fucking hell, we had a right crack, pity that times have changed and i can't even go into a shop without a fucking mask on." i frowned, "fucking stupid if you ask me."

masks are something i'm not very fond of, and i avoided whenever possible, but being a youtuber, in the public eye that was pretty much impossible to do and that's one thing about being in the public eye that gets right under my skin, having only one million subscribers on youtuber and a few hundred thousand on instagram it affected me badly, i was unsure how the boys did it.

ethan just shrugged in response making it obvious that this wasn't a topic he would like to carry on talking about.

we sat there for a few seconds before ethan broke the silence, "right, i better go home." he patted his thighs standing up.

"mhm, i'll walk you down." i smiled standing up.

we walked to the kitchen and had a five minute conversation with the girls before walking him down to the front.

"you sure you will be okay from here?" i looked up at him.

"mhm." he smiled pulling me into his embrace.

"alright, see you soon eth." i grinned as he nodded.

i walked him walk down the road, with a grin that would not come off on my face as if it was written in permanent pen.

a/n

i just really wanted to update cos sitting around crying really aint gonna help me, however im gonna take it easy with updating x

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