That Feeling.

 That feeling when when you look at yourself in the mirror,  

 That feeling that your friends are not comfortable around you,  

 That feeling of not being good enough. 

 That feeling which makes it hard to breathe,   

 That feeling that makes it hard to see,                

 That feeling that makes simple things complicated,    

 That feeling that tugs your consciousness saying that you are not worth it,   

                                    You are not the one, not just for that person you love but that friend who's stayed by your side for all the times, makes you think that maybe they talk about you behind you, maybe they are ashamed to call you their friend, maybe do not want to hangout with you maybe their "new friends" that they make could replace you cause you, you are nothing or mean anything. That maybe you are being a burden and start to distance yourself from them not knowing there's no one they would rather share all their deepest thoughts and fears with but you are too insecure to see past a a few new people but you are too messed up for it for any of it you just want them to assure you saying you! You mean a lot to mean! But they don't have a clue about what's going on in that fucked up head of yours. It's that feeling that fucks it all up. That soulmate of a friend who completes you seems to be nowhere cause she does have a life apart from yours, but maybe they're all just your thoughts.

Yours truly,

Insecure Friend.