Hunter x Hunter Drabbles

Not Deserving (Leopika)

"Kurapika!"

Leorio's voice echoed in the distance- when did he move so far away? Or was it just because Kurapika's thumping heart as the thing made of Nen approached him at a rapid speed that made everything so blurry and so distant?

The Kurta knows he should be moving out of the way as soon as possible, but its moving so fast that he's not even sure he could if he tried.

Chrollo stood at the other end of the room, which seemed, in Kurapika's eyes, to have grown about 10 feet longer from where he was standing to where the man clad in a leather coat with its exaggerated lion mane of fur was now. Kurapika knew Crhollo could steal abilities from other Nen users but what in the actual fuck was that thing!?

Out of the corner of his eye, he could see a flash of white moving towards him at the speed of light just as the thing- the- what was it? A bullet? Maybe a bullet- a bullet, then- just as the Nen bullet approached him, just a smidge slower. And before the blonde knew it, his vision was blurred and everything had turned sideways. He blinked, tears prickling at the corners of his eyes from the lack of blinking beforehand as his scarlet eyes had remained on the bullet.

There was a presence above him, he was sure, and he could barely feel the tingling of something against him.

"Ka!"

"Ika!"

"Pika!!"

"KURAPIKA!! —P O— OF I—!"A numb stinning and suddenly Kurapika was facing upwards. A figure basked in blue light sat above him, clearly having just slapped him, from the hand that was still raised. Narrowed cat-like eyes glared down at Kurapika. But he could see the small, well-hidden glint of worry in the boy's eyes above him.

"-ill—a!"

Another, much more worried, voice had joined besides Kurapika and the Kurta could barely feel Gon's touch on his arm before he saw him. Leorio was the last to enter the scene, though that might have been because he was struggling to dig through his suitcase as quickly as possible. That and Gon and Killua were impossibly fast. Killua especially, ever since he had found his special Nen ability Godspeed.

"H—re l-m- —ee y—r —j-ries"

Kurapika blinked again and realized he couldn't move. And that he could barely feel. He didn't feel it when Leorio took his hand. The only reason he knew he had was because he could see it just out of his peripheral vision. And he only knew he was being picked up because he saw the way the world suddenly shifted so he was higher and he saw he was pressed against Leorio's chest. He could only guess he was being cradled by the way his friend's shoulders seemed slightly smaller. He assumed this was the cause of that.

"—an you h—re me?"

Kurapika went to nod, but found he could not. He squeezed his eyes shut. He seemed to be able to move his face at least. Maybe he could speak.

"Y-yes." That was a start. "Not- not too well but- yes."

Leorio frowned, but he seemed slightly relieved regardless. Kurapika did not feel the way Leorio's chest rose and fell against him when the man holding him took a deep breath, but he saw it. He did not feel the leather beneath him when Leorio set him in the front seat of his car and he only barely registered the unlocking and shutting of the back doors when Gon and Killua got in with them.

"Leorio?" He heard Gon's voice. Far away but much clearer than before. "Are we going to your place?"

"No. I'm taking you straight to Kite and then Kurapika to the hospital."

He couldn't see it, but Kurapika already knew Gon frowned at that, guilt swimming in those honey brown eyes of his and he could faintly hear Killua's scoff as he told Leorio to let them come with, they could handle it.

But Leorio was not worried that they would be unable to handle it, rather, he was afraid Kurapika wouldn't be able to. He knew the Kurta had a tendency to shut himself away and he had a feeling his junior by two years would want a minimal audience.

"Let them come." The words left Kurapika's mouth before he could stop them, and if he could have, he might have clasped his hands onto his mouth in abject horror with himself. Because Leorio's assumption had been right. Kurapika's brain couldn't handle his three friends seeing him so weak. But his heart yearned to have their company again. And today his brain was malfunctioning. Which meant the heart was meant to take over in its place.

"...Kurapika, are you sure?"

"Yes." A pause. "I want— I would like to be with you- all of you- through this. If I can. But- if I may ask. Why the hospital? You're already a doctor, right, Leorio?"

"Hm? Oh yeah. But I can tell you can't move and I don't really have the equipment on me to deal with a paralysis right now. That and Killua's use of his Nen abilities did shock you. I imagine you were already a bit numbed to the zap from how little you reacted but the damage is probably worse than what it was on the surface. I already patched you up as best I could, so all the bad injuries that are actually visible have been taken care of."

"Sorry," he heard Killua mutter.

"No," Kurapika spoke. "You were trying to help. It's alright. I didn't feel it anyway."

"Yeah.."

No one commented on Gon's unusual silence during the ride. No one said much of anything at all, in fact. The ride was eerily silent, except for the bustling streets of Yorknew City and the occasional bark of a dog or shout of a person. It all seemed so far away.

"Are we going to the Hospital you work at now?" Gon broke the silence first. And it was a great relief for all of them that the boy still wanted to make any sort of conversation during this, even if they had been driving in silence for a while before he spoke.

"Yeah," said Leorio, "I know how the Hospital there operates so I can trust the people in there to do as good a job as I can- better, probably." The thought that Leorio cared so much that he wanted to make sure he would entrust Kurapika to only the best hands he knew made something in the blonde's heart flutter in his chest.

Even in his dazed state, he knew it was best to bury those feelings away for now. He wasn't deserving of all these good people.

Gon, Killua, Melody, Leorio...He truly had been blessed with the most amazing and wonderful friends.