Up and Down's of Florida... (dnf)

my hero...

⚠️tw such as anxiety and self harm⚠️

After what Sapnap said I obviously had to talk to Clay I had to fix what I did wrong. But how should I fix it he would still be mad at me. It was worth a shot though so I grabbed my crutches and went downstairs I finally learned how to do it. Then there was Clay just on the couch on his phone. Now this was my chance to tell Clay how sorry I was for saying the things I said. I was just mad I never meant to say the things I said I did want to stay here. Clay didn't deserve that he had been nothing but kind to me.

"Clay look I'm sorry for what I said I never meant to say that I wish I could take it back" I apologized looking at Clay.

"I have nothing to say to you" Clay said looking at his phone.

"Clay I said I was sorry" I said.

Then I one thing I wished he never did he ignored me...

I quickly ran upstairs to my room and closed the door I regretted everything I did. I knew Clay wasn't gonna forgive me not one bit. My breath got heavier I started sliding against the door. There were tears in my eyes every single minute while I was living my breath got heavier and heavier. I couldn't stop crying I already couldn't breathe my vision got blurry from my tears. I started to pull my hair a tiny bit and started to band my head against the wall. This had happened many times before even before I moved to Clays house. Clay wouldn't forgive me and I would have to understand that. I started burying my nails into my skin slightly bleeding. My hands were slightly bleeding from my digging my nails into my skin harder and harder. I started to sob still banging my head against the wall. I slid into my bathroom leaving the door open and turning on the shower freezing cold and went inside. I didn't care that it was cold or that I had my clothes on. I deserved it I didn't mean to say it I just was sorry for what I did. Again just in the freezing cold shower I banged my head against the wall burying my nails into my skin my breath got heavier. Then a heard a rattling noise but I ignored it I didn't care about it. And it stopped I couldn't hear a lot cause me banging my head and the shower. My hair was soaked same with my shirt and pants I still couldn't barely breathe or see. My window was open and from that same place there was a noise coming from there. I didn't see what it was because I was in the bathroom door wide open. Then in my room there was quick footsteps it sounded like running to the bathroom I was in. I curled up into a ball still banging my head against the wall.

"what did I do wrong?" I sobbed.

"oh george" someone said walking into the same bathroom.

It sounded familiar the voice...

"C-clay" I whispered barley could hear me from sobbing.

"Come here" Clay said walk towards me.

"I'm so sorry george this isn't your fault it's mine I was the one who shut you out but I won't do that anymore" Clay said hugging me.

Clay always knew when something was wrong I adored that about him when Clay hugged me I hugged him back. Clay was a little wet from me.

"im sorry" I sobbed into Clays shoulder.

"shhh shhh it's ok George im here now" Clay whispered and kissed the top of my head.

"Bloody hell George you must be freezing" Clay said quickly turning off the shower.

"Here" Clay said taking off his sweatshirt and putting it on me.

"Come on now your ok" Clay said picking me up and putting me on my bed.

"Here take my hand" Clay said putting his hand out.

I do what he said...

"Oh my god George" Clay said grabbing my hand seeing the little bloody marks.

"one sec" Clay said leaving the bed grabbing a bandage.

"I'm back" Clay said returning to the bed sitting down on the bed.

"Here" Clay said grabbing my hand.

"did you?" Clay said looking up at me.

i silently nodded my head...

"oh george I shouldn't have left you" Clay said in disappointment.

"george look at me" Clay said while I lifted up my head.

"Don't do this to yourself ok I would never want you to get hurt" Clay said holding my hands.

"ok" I whispered.

"thank you" Clay said putting a bandage on my hand.

"can you s-stay with m-me" I stuttered.

"of course" Clay said laying down on the bed next to me hugging me.

"I will never leave you again George I promise" Clay looked at me wiping my tears from my eyes.

"ok" I said snuggling into Clays chest.

"your warm" I chuckled softly.

"hmm and you are cold" Clay chuckled.

A few seconds later I drifted to sleep in Clays arms I drifted to sleep in his warm touch. He always saves the day my day rather. I blushed a tiny bit how could someone not love the wonderful person Clay is. Clay is everything I adore sweet, protective, never gives up, and finally loving. Clay always saves the day like a hero more like

my hero...
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Authors note: They are starting to love each other closer and closer I have about 20 more chapters or a little more maybe less who knows to go then the book will be over. How is the book so far readers?

968 words :)