Jemma and Justin

Chapter 3

Once I turned the corner and walked so fast, almost running and me being the clumsy person I am of course, trips over my own feet and I get sent flying, omg I swear I went air born for at least two seconds.

I picked myself up and brushed off and kept walking/running.

I reached home, my house was nothing special just your ordinary suburban house. It was a simple one story brick house with a sweet little garden with some of mums favourite flowers which we planted in her memory the day of her funeral to be exact there were splashes of yellow, red and most of all pink roses mums flowers we call them and everytime they bloom we feel like she is doing alright up where ever she is now.

I stumbled in the door and saw dad and jake, the inside if our house was nice and simple but also retro with red grey and black accents just the way mum and dad liked it we had a big outdoor area out the back followed with a pool and spa down the back of the yard.

" Hello Chook, how are you ? " I heard dad say as I walked in the living room

" Good Thanks dad " I said rushing down the hall way into my room.

It was 3:10 so I had forty minutes to get ready so I quickly jumped in the shower, soaped up then rinsed and got out.

I headed to my room to find something to wear I ravaged through my wardrobe to find something to wear, I finally settled on a pair of jeans because unlike yesterday it was chilly today and a muscle t-shirt that was grey with a floral peace sign on the front witch at the back showed off my tattoo.

I had my tattoo done for mum and it was actually pretty unexpected because when mum died I went into a really rough stage along with my family, I stayed in my room and stayed in bed, half of the time I never did my hair and never really did my makeup. I didn't go to school and started having suicidal thoughts and I started self harming myself in most ways I could find and Cat one day walked in on me cutting (witch still to this day the scars haunt me) and we both sat there crying on each other's shoulders when she came up with idea that if I was going to hurt myself no more.

The next day we booked in to get me a tattoo and I wanted it close to my heart but not on my chest so I just had it done on my shoulder, it is of six small eagles flying to represent mum flying high and looking down on me like eagles and the six represents mums birthday is on the six of the six month, so whenever I thought of cutting or self harming I could just think of my tattoo.

I walked back into the bathroom and ran the straighter through my hair and put on some makeup BB cream, powder, bronzer to enhance my already noticeable cheek bones, mascara and some lipgloss to add some colour.

" You look nice Chook " I heard dad as I walked into the family room

" Thankyou dad " I said with a shy smile

" What's the occasion ? " Asked dad

" Oh I'm just going out with a friend "

" Oh yeah, witch friend ? " He asked curious

" Oh you know Justin Merrick ? "

" Oh cool well have fun "

" I will and hey can I borrow your car ? " I asked

" Yeah sure the keys are in the door "

" Ok Thankyou see you later" I waved as I walked out the door

I hopped in dad's ute and turn up the radio like I always do and drive to the skate park witch was on the other side of town.

I finally arrived at the skatepark and I could see Justin sitting there, Shit how long has he been waiting here, isn't that a grate first impression being late.

" Heyyy " said Justin as I sat down next to him

" Hey how are you ? " I asked

" I'm good thanks, you ? "

" Yeah I doing grate "

" So ahh how have you been ? " Justin asked nervously

" Yeah took a little bit but I think I am doing alright now " I felt my stomach starting to move it's way up

" Oh that's good, look I really don't want to seem like I am nosing around in your business but umm rumours get spread and ahh " I could see he was nervous about asking

" Nah it's alright, I guess I can tell you what happened If you like ? "

" Sure "

" Ok we'll you know about the accident hey ? " I asked as I could still feel my stomach creeping up

Every time I talk about the accident I always get a lump in my throat.
I stared off into the distance, for I couldn't look in his eyes.

"About two years ago our family was driving to a holiday that we had been planning for a few months, we were at traffic lights. It was our turn to go left but a car come flying out of nowhere and t-boned us. Dad was driving so he was concentrated on the road but mum noticed the car just before we got hit, the car hit mums side -I was sitting behind mum-. That's all I remember until I was in a stretcher being flown to john hunter hospital to be taken care of. I remember," I could feel tears forming in my eyes as I spoke, "I remember waking up on my own, I couldn't feel anything, I was all drugged up so I couldn't feel the pain. I blacked out again then I woke up in the hospital. As soon as I woke up dad was there, Jake was there too. They where asleep, so I woke dad up, he was so surprised and the amount of relief that I could see in his eyes. He told me that I was in a coma for 3-4 weeks and that he never thought I'd wake up. He also told me that it was a miracle that I survived, I should have died.. But I didn't." I was fully crying now and I could feel Justin's arms come around my shoulders to support me. "After that dad told me that mum was also in a coma but she was on life support and that they think it was time to turn it off because she wasn't showing signs of any recovery but dad didn't want to do it, not until I woke up. A week later they turned it off, she was gone. The only mother I will ever have is gone and knowing I couldn't do anything about it was painful. She will never be there when I get graduate or get married, her grandchildren will never get to meet her." I was struggling to tell more, "I started getting depressed and anxiety, They were apart of me for so long. Dad, he started drinking, staying out till late. Jake was sad but he never showed it, he cried all the time in his bedroom, it broke my heart to hear it through the walls"

Katherine was the first person I ever told, she was there when I was in the hospital and she was there for the funereal, she was there through everything and she still is. She's the one who I would go to when I needed a friend.

All of a sudden I could feel Justin's hand move from around my shoulder to around my neck.... He lips lingered around mine waiting for my approval to see if it's okay with me, I moved my head an inch closer and our lips met. I was oblivious to our surroundings, it felt so right and every time our lips moved in unison my body heated up, I broke away and I could feel his warm breath on my cheek.

I got up realising that this is very wrong. I was in a committed relationship, I shouldn't be doing this.
"I've got to go." I started walking away very quickly and I could hear him calling out my name but I wouldn't turn around.